Daily Journal 7/31/2017

Well, today we made it to the doctor and my husband got his meds filled and I got a new medication that is to help me with my OCD and sleep. I am hopeful that it will help me because being around the people I am frustrates me because they live differently or do things differently than what I am used to. So, we will see how this next month goes and if it will help.

Other than that, my old roommate paid us a visit and didn’t even say two words to me but is supposed to be getting the rest of her stuff out of here on Friday, but it doesn’t matter because we are moving anyway which I am looking forward to. It will be nice to be away from here and getting a fresh start. Being out in the middle of nowhere might do some good for me mentally as well.

I am feeling a little better today but I am taking a few days off mentally from everything. I told my husband he gets to delegate things and take over for me while I rest my mind. I have too many things to get taken care of for me and I need to focus on that. I hope my husband can handle everything and not just sit back and let everything go.

Well, it is that time for me to get on to other things and want to wish everyone “Happy Birthday” that has a birthday today and to everyone else have a blessed day.

Daily Journal 7/30/2017

I want to apologize for not being here for a few days because I have been dealing with some things on the inside. Both of my therapists have moved on to better jobs and so I am waiting for new ones to call to set up appointments to meet. New roommates are young and need some training in basic essentials of living like cleaning up behind themselves and being respectful and responsible and it is hard for me with my OCD and anxiety to cope with it all.

It built up so bad today that I had a break down earlier with anger and crying and my mental mood is barely hanging on. I feel like I need to isolate again from everyone just to cope which sometimes that is not a bad thing. It has put a hindrance on my book writing because it is clouding up my mind where my creativity is being blocked.

I had to clean the house today just to keep from blowing up at anyone and it seems like the more someone says something to me the more I want to just blow up. So, my husband knows that it is necessary to keep everyone away from me today until I feel better. It is one of those “I want to punch a glass window” day which would lead to a hospital visit which would stress me even more.

I have been trying to play games on Facebook just to help me put my mind somewhere else and cope but it does little good. I will be seeing the doctor tomorrow about my meds because I don’t think they are helping much at this point or maybe it is just me. I feel like I have been misdiagnosed or there is a new condition that should be addressed but I will find out tomorrow.

Let me get off of here and get my mind elsewhere and maybe even get some writing done. Maybe I should start writing something new to release my anger like a book about being a killer. I feel homicidal but my husband would not like me telling him that right now. It is bad enough he is walking on eggshells around me and that he has been out of medication himself since yesterday so we will butt heads every now and then.

I wish everyone a “Happy Birthday” who has a birthday today and a blessed day for everyone else in the world. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 7/25/2017

Well, today started off good and everyone got some much-needed rest. Tomorrow we go out to the property and begin the cleanup process so that we can move in. After she told me about all of the snakes that roam around up there, I had dreams of snakes all night and one of the dogs getting bit. We have a lot of work to do but it will be worth it in the end.

I went and did some shopping today to get things we needed and the house is cleaned so now I can sit down and get started with writing. I look forward to getting Joshua completed so I can start editing it. I think it will make a very good read for most and I find it exciting while I write it. The proof will be in the finished product.

I showered, the house is clean, and now I can write to my heart’s content. I hope everyone had an amazing Tuesday and that your evening is relaxing and worth every minute of it. I want to wish a “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and that you have many more to come. I want to say good night now and have a blessed evening.

Daily Journal 7/24/2017

Well, I was up all night because I couldn’t sleep and finally laid down about nine this morning. Then I got up and we all took a ride out to the property where we are trying to move to take a look at what needs to be done. There is a lot of work to be done yard and land wise and some minor repairs to the inside of the trailer which isn’t bad but we can make it happen and livable.

We are going to go out there a few times this week to start the cleanup process and get everything ready for inspection with the goal to move in the first week of next month. It has an acre and a half of land for all the animals to roam around and when we pulled up there was a mother deer with two babies feeding in the yard which was cool to see.

I am still a little tired but I need to find some motivation to get things started today. I have made some great progress with taking my notes for my addictions book and I will be working on my fictional book a little today as well. Other than being a little tired I feel pretty good today and can’t wait to get started on this huge project of having a nice place to live. It is so quiet out there in the middle of nowhere and all the wildlife we will see every day.

So, let me try and get motivated and I hope everyone has a great evening. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today. Take care.