Daily Journal 6/20/2017

Hello, everyone. It is such a gorgeous day outside and I feel awesome today. I got up this morning, had coffee with my husband, then cleaned the house and finished the laundry. Now, I am here with my favorite people which are you, my readers. I love sharing my life, whether good or bad, with you all. I want you to get to know me and see that I am a real person with real life issues that happen every single day.

I have had a really hard life full of liars, thieves, cheats, and drugs. I kicked a drug addiction back in two-thousand and eight, have done some minor jail time, and even formed a nonprofit that assists the homeless and needy families. I took everything bad and wrong in my life and made something positive from it.

I suffer from mental health issues that keep me from going a lot of places where there are groups of people. I suffer from depression which causes suicidal or self-harm tendencies, severe anxiety and social anxiety disorder, plus PTSD.

All my life people told me that I should write a book about my life to help others and back then, I would just brush off the thought until last year. I was dealing with a lot of stress and depression and finally sat down and began writing out a plan to write my story in hopes that it would help other people.

When I started writing my first book I found that I had a place I could disappear to. Of course, it made me remember things that I really didn’t want to remember but it did some good to get it out of my head. I isolate a lot of the times and writing gives me an outlet. Granted, my story is nonfiction, but I am working on some fiction which gives me a place to live in my mind.

So, things are getting better for me and my life and I look forward to having people read my books. I just thought maybe you should know the real me and where I came from and where I am going is anyone’s guess. I live a simple life and even use coupons when shopping. I love the outdoors like fishing, camping, and gardening. I shop at Walmart in the middle of the night because of my social anxiety disorder.

You are my only friends and family and that’s enough for me. I appreciate everyone who reads my stories and journal entries and I hope that we get to know each other better. I look forward to it. 🙂

In conclusion, everyone who has a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have a great and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/19/2017

Happy Monday everyone. Well, I’m finally up and drinking coffee trying to open my eyes. I was up until four this morning. I hate taking meds that are supposed to help me sleep and it takes them hours to kick in. I should probably take them about seven or eight o’clock but with my luck, they would kick in fast and I would be asleep by nine.

It’s a new work week and I have deadlines to get done by the end of this week and look forward to finishing my manuscript and start the first round of editing. I will be finishing up a new short story also today. I have lots of things to get done and with God’s help, I can get everything accomplished.

I feel pretty good today with no stress issues as of yet but the day is just getting started, lol. My husband is in a good mood and being a smart ass but I love him so much. He has been very supportive of my writing and wants me to do what makes me happy and that is my writing. He even goes as far as keeping my roommate off of me when I’m writing so that I am not disturbed.

Well, it’s time to get to work and I have some making up on a few things too. I hope everyone had an awesome father’s day yesterday? To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, I wish for you a very blessed and prosperous day. Have a good day! 🙂

Happy Father’s Day! 6/18/2017

First, I want to wish every father out there a very “Happy Father’s Day” and that you deserve to have a day that recognizes you for all your hard work, effort, and support that you have given to your children. It takes a real man to be there to support his children and if you are raising someone else’s children, then I applaud you even more. My husband and I were not blessed with any children except for our four-legged ones, but we do admire and respect those who have walked in those shoes of fatherhood. I also want to say “thank you” for being a part of your children’s lives and supporting their mother through it as well.

Now, on to me. I am having a good day so far except for a little issue with my right leg. I just tried walking to the store with my husband and using my cane when my right leg began going weak. Then, on the way back it was like a charlie horse in my calf but it was taking my right leg out from under me and my husband had to catch me before I hit the ground. He had to support me the rest of the way home. Thank God it was only a few blocks away.

I am feeling good about everything and look forward to chatting with everyone every day. You, my readers, make it worth getting up for every day. I feel alive today more than any other and for an unknown reason. I have decided and discussed with my husband that I will do my book writing at night. He is usually asleep around midnight and even with my meds I am still up until three or four o’clock in the morning, so I might as well use that quiet time for writing.

I am going to end this posting here so that I can get everything together for my writing tonight. I still have a few things to do before I begin writing. I wish everyone who has a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else a truly relaxing a blessed evening.

P.S “Happy Father’s Day!!”

Daily Journal 6/17/2017

Hello, friends and family. How is everyone today? I woke up pretty good today and looking forward to a day full of writing. My husband left with family members to go work on one of their cars, so that leaves me with peace and quiet to write. Granted, I am doing laundry, but still able to write. I was up until four o’clock this morning working on some printing of forms I got passed to me to help me with time management and work efficiency. They are a great help right now with all of the issues I am facing.

I have finally made the decision to tighten up and keep pushing forward because I am faced with people around me who do not want to see me succeed and will do whatever they can to stop me from completing my tasks and my writing. I know what I am capable of doing and can be successful if given the chance but my roommate knows how to play games and is such a drama queen. She tries to take my attention away from my writing and my husband has agreed to keep her away from me when I am writing.

I have my game plan and strategy to get my books done and I need to put them into action. I appreciate all the support and love I receive from all my readers who are my friends and family. I hope to gain more because I know you can never have too many friends and family, lol.

Now it is time for me to get back to my writing and hope to hear from all of you soon. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and I wish everyone an awesome and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/16/2017

Good evening everyone. How are you doing this beautiful evening? My night has been going okay so far. I went this morning to the diagnostics office and had the CT Scan of my stomach hernia which I call my alien baby and will be seeing my doctor on Wednesday to get the results and what the course of action will be. I am concerned as to what it is doing or how they plan to address it. It causes me to have constant nausea, I can’t lay on my stomach without pain, and whenever I eat something it hurts. I can only hope for the best.

I have spent the better part of today regrouping myself and getting my goals, deadlines, and schedules revamped for more efficiency. I am taking some of my short stories and compiling them into an e-book as a freebie. I am getting ready to send it to the editor this week and have been doing my first round of editing on it as well. I know some of you may not have gotten a chance to read them on their sites so I am putting the best ones together in a free e-book.

I am still working on my book “The Battle for Joshua” and should, fingers crossed, have the first draft done by the end of next week. I get so caught up in the story that chapters become more than ten pages each. I am rather enjoying writing it and look forward to sharing it with everyone. It will be a full-length novel and you should enjoy reading it as it keeps my attention while writing it. Look for it soon, but I will keep you updated.

Well, it is time for me to finish some things up before bed and I wish whoever has a birthday today, a “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, an awesome and blessed evening.

Daily Journal 6/13/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family old and new. I love to see new followers every day and I appreciate everyone equally and feel like you are all part of my family. You are those who will listen to my ramblings when no one physically here with me understands. I can go into crisis mode and once I begin talking to you all here and telling you of my issues I start to feel better and it feels like you really are listening.

Anyway, today I am going back in writing mode and to hell with everything else around me. I am tired of being the maid, secretary, and dog groomer. It is time for me to do me now. Everything going on here makes me feel like the servant and slave and it stops here and now. People who are able to need to do things for themselves and let me do what I need to do for me. If something happens to me what will they do without me?

I am writing chapter seven of my second book today with a goal to have chapter seven, eight, and part of nine done today. I found out the other night that with my headphones playing music in my ears I get more writing done, so I have them on now and will be getting things done today. I look forward to finishing the manuscript and begin the editing phase. As part of my editing, I will record the reading of my manuscript so that I can hear it and make any corrections as I follow along.

I am going to get some goals done today and who knows that it could be possible to finish my manuscript today but I know that once I fall into the story I get lost and chapters become long ones. Writing is my escape mechanism from everyday drama which is what I try to avoid as much as possible. So, I want to wish everyone who’s birthday is today a very “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else an awesome and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/11/2017

Hello, Everyone! How are you today? My night went to crap last night when I watched our one-year-old rabbit take her last few breaths. We have no clue what happened but she started losing weight about a week ago. It was only yesterday that she refused to eat anything. We buried her at approximately two-thirty this morning. My husband and I could not go to sleep until it was after daylight. It’s hard because she was a family member not just a pet. I beat myself up because had we not moved into this house she would still be alive.

Other than that, I just got up to my roommate bitching about the power bill because we have used fifty dollars worth of power in a week. She thinks that with three people living in this house the power should be under a hundred dollars a month, I don’t think so. So, she is ranting and raving about flipping the main breaker and turning off the power to the whole house. I almost told her that if she would stop doing laundry just to leave it around for her animals to spray and urinate on she would not have to do twenty loads of laundry every week.

I am just so over living here with her and will keep myself in our room unless I need to use the restroom or get something to drink. She gets high on meth every so often but says she doesn’t. I watch her and I can tell when she is high but my husband doesn’t see everything and I have tried telling him. Well, we had company the other night while my roommate was high and even our company caught on and when my husband asked our roommate if she was high, she quickly said “yes”.

I am waiting on my last lump sum payment from social security to get us out of here. This is just getting to be too much and I don’t need the extra added stress. She also thinks that I am her maid and should be cleaning out her cat boxes and pee pads all over the house. I have told her that these are not my animals and I should not have to clean up after them. She really got my goat the other day when I cleaned the kitchen completely just for her to have all of her cats on top of the counter to feed them where she spills cat and dog food everywhere and doesn’t wipe it up.

I’m sorry to be ranting but I am so over this crap with her I could scream. I almost ready to not pay any bills this coming month just to get us out of here. I don’t know what else to do. Well, let me get back to working on my book and I will talk again soon. I wish everyone a great and awesome day.

Be Blessed!

Daily Journal 6/10/2017

Hello, Everyone. I do apologize for my absence but I have found myself stuck inside the storyline of the book that I am currently writing. When I sit down to begin writing I fall into the story like I am there in it and disappear from reality. Plus, I have found myself adding more to each chapter not to fluff it up but more of the story itself. Currently, the book is a little over twenty-five thousand words and I still have approximately six more chapters to go, so this book will be a full-length novel and can’t wait to release it. I hope everyone who gets it will enjoy it as much as I have writing it. Here is a rough draft teaser of chapter one:

     It was dark and all you could feel was heat and hearing the screaming of lost souls. Every tunnel seems to go on forever with rooms every one-hundred feet. Within these rooms, there were souls being tormented by demons. Every now and then you would see a demon fleeting past you and even some that seemed to be whispering in your ear in the dark. This was a dismal place to be and with a quick thought a torture chamber.
Some of the rooms you could see flames as the floor while souls hung by their hands over it. They’re screaming and pleading for their lives as each demon has a turn at whipping them or dropping them enough to scorch their feet. This was one place no one should be subject to. You can see the souls of the elderly crying as they are shown how their family is being tormented amongst the living.
In one of the cave-like rooms sits a small humped over gargoyle- like creature with long, white hair, long claws, and solid black eyes. He looks to be an older demon with facial features of wrinkles and sagging skin. His name is Gusion the discerner of past, present, and future. He sits inside an inverted hexagram on the floor while what looks like meditating. He sits for hours discerning the future of souls and the past of souls arriving in Hades.
One could say he is a receiving center for prisoners who arrive and sorts through them to see which prison or fate they should have or be sent to. He makes marks on the floor as he sees, like taking notes. Gusion is one of the demons who report to the king of Hades, Asmodeus, on his findings.
Asmodeus is an arch demon and the evilest demon in Hades. He is the king under Lucifer which makes the final decisions of all legions. Almost as a general of armies. He is a large dark-orange skinned beast with red eyes under large black eyebrows. He has large fanged teeth and two spiraled horns that stand straight up from his head.
One day, Gusion had a vision of the future. It is so disturbing to him that he becomes restless and agitated. After sitting for a few hours to make sure what he is seeing is true, he gets up and hurries to find Asmodeus. He searches every hole and room looking for the arch demon. He finally finds him in one of the thousand rooms torturing a soul to the extreme. Asmodeus finds pleasure and relaxation while he is tormenting.
Gusion hates to disturb him but the information he must give is detrimental to the future of Hades. He stands there for a few minutes watching Asmodeus trying to figure out how to tell him and what kind of reaction he will get off the news. He finally sees that Asmodeus is done with the lost soul and informs him he needs a word with the king.
Asmodeus walks out of the room with Gusion on his heels blabbing away of his news. He hears nothing as he walks to his throne room and informs Gusion that he does not listen to matters until he is relaxing on his throne. Gusion agrees and shuts up while following his king. They walk down many tunnels of heat and darkness until coming to the throne room of fire.
Once seated on his throne, he calls for his beloved hounds of Hell for some attention. Two very large black dogs with flaming red eyes enter the room and sit at the feet of their master. Asmodeus reaches down and begins petting them before telling Gusion to speak of his concern.
Gusion begins trembling as he hesitantly starts talking. He tells Asmodeus of his discerning of the future of Hades. A human child will be born that will have the power to destroy the entrance to Hades and the Abyss forever. It has been shown to him the child and as he reaches sixteen earth years old he will defeat us in battle and close the entrance.
With this information, Asmodeus becomes enraged and steps off his throne pacing back and forth. He begins ranting and throwing up of his hands which make his pets tremble and quietly leave the room. He turns to Gusion yelling at him as to why he didn’t say something earlier. Gusion stepping out on a limb informs Asmodeus that he was trying to tell him as they walked through the tunnels.
Thinking that Gusion is becoming insubordinate, he wipes his hand against Gusion sending him across the room. Gusion gets up and tries pleading with Asmodeus for mercy. Asmodeus sits back on his throne made of brimstone and begins thinking to himself before asking Gusion where this child will be located.
Gusion humbly informs him that his sight does not show locations, only of events that have happened, are happening, and ones that will happen. No location has been shown and the only thing he knows it that the child will be born to a young couple with no Christian beliefs. Asmodeus agrees that this information will make destroying this child easier.
It is told that plans must be made to kill the child’s mother before he is born. Locating the family will be difficult but they must be swift before Gabriel and the other angels find out. Asmodeus sends for Vassago to come to him and will give him the job of locating the child’s parents.
Vassago is demon prince who discovers things lost or hidden. He will make finding the child quicker. He is a medium-sized gargoyle figure with yellow eyes and the commander of twenty-six legions. He has been under Asmodeus for centuries and always completes his task.
Vassago enters the throne room bowing before his king. He asks why his King has sent for him? He was training his legions for combat, stealth, and deception when called for. Asmodeus informs him that he has a task for him of the greatest importance. He tells Vassago of Gusion’s vision which is very disturbing to all involved.
Asmodeus sends Vassago to search out the young couple and to report his findings back to him. Vassago agrees and is sent off to search out the parents on earth. He begins his search from one end of the earth and makes his way across the planet searching for any young couple that is pregnant with the destined child.
Meanwhile, Eremiel, who is the great angel that rules over the entrance to Hades and the Abyss, overhears of the plans to search out a child with a great destiny ahead of him. He then sends word to Gabriel, who is a higher angel in the heavens. Gabriel wears a white robe, has curly long blond hair, blue eyes with a long blond beard. He is one of the elders that carries a staff of blessing.
Gabriel takes this information and does some research of his own to find out more about this child. He seeks out knowledge from the council as to who this child is or will be. The council debates and looks to the foreseers to explain why this child is important. After much time, they reconvene to inform Gabriel of the destiny of this certain child. That he will be a warrior among angels and the destroyer of evil.
Gabriel listens to the council as they give much detail about the child in question and that he needs to be watched over and protected. He is also told that this child has not yet been born and that he is the child of a young couple that does not believe in the Christian faith.
Now having found out why Asmodeus wants to kill this child, Gabriel needs to make some tough decisions concerning the welfare of this child. Being that he will be born to atheistic parents, it will be hard to confront them concerning the safety and welfare of their child. If they do not believe in angels or demons, then it will be hard to appear to them and inform them of how important their child will be.
Gabriel then calls for Diniel who is a younger but experienced angel on the safety and protection of infants. Diniel comes before Gabriel and listens as he translates the destiny and importance of how this child needs to be protected. Diniel works well with children since they pretty much can see angels and demons because of their purity in spirit. He has a young angelic face, short brown hair, brown eyes, and wears a lavender colored robe.
Diniel and Gabriel set down a plan of action to protect the family from any undue harm. The family needs to be protected from demon attacks which could jeopardize the child’s life. Diniel then sets out to search for the parents to put a hedge of protection around them. He is to guard them night and day until the birth of the child.
Diniel is aware that Asmodeus has sent Vassago out to find the child as well and that he should be prepared in case of unintentional contact with the demon. Vassago is much stronger than Diniel and he does not want any confrontation with him unless it is necessary. His mission is to find the parents and protect them.
Now Diniel and Vassago both are out on the earth searching out a young couple who will have a child of importance. Each is searching high and low, from couple to couple looking for the parents of the special child. The fate of Hades and the Abyss rest in the survival or death of this child.

Remember, this is just a first rough draft and I will be adding some more to it and making it the best it can be. I hope it grips your curiosity to read more? I will be doing the first round of editing this week and revising to specifications. Well, I need to get going before it gets too late. I wish everyone a great night and a blessed day tomorrow.

“Good night!”

Daily Journal 6/4/2017

Good morning friends and family. Today has started out to be a good day so far. It is overcast outside and I’m pretty sure it is going to rain sometime today. Well, the only vehicle we had in this house broke down on Friday and is sitting in the shop being repaired. So, we are without a vehicle and need a new battery for our car sitting at my father-in-law’s house. So we are stuck right now with no transportation.

I am going to be doing some writing today and getting caught up on some other things that I have missed since the beginning of the month. I still need to go back and add more to the first chapter of my second book which I should have completed this week. Something or someone is always trying to deter me from writing and getting my stuff done. It can be a real pain sometimes.

My mind is a little better today but like I said, the day has just gotten started. Our roommate has finally gotten out of bed to feed her animals and already causing me some stress because she knows I am just sitting down to write and has to call me for everything. Well, I am staying strong enough to get what I need to be done first and foremost before doing anything else. I spent the better part of the whole day yesterday cleaning her cat’s room.

Well, I will end here and get into my writing because I have to get the story out of my head before I fall into that world and never return, lol. I love everyone and wish you the best day ever. Be blessed.

Daily Journal 6/3/2017

Hello, everyone. It is now two o’clock in the morning EST and I am exhausted and hurting. I have spent the better part of the day shopping for necessities and food. Our last stop was Walmart where it was so packed full of people that the nearest parking spot was about fifteen parking spots from the entrance. We got inside and I immediately went into panic mode due to my social anxiety disorder. I shop at night to avoid crowds.

When we entered the store, it wasn’t long before my husband and friends were handing me plastic bags to puke in. That is how strong it can get. I pretty much have to have tunnel vision to shop in order to get it done. It took about two hours before we were at the checkout because I had to keep stopping to get ahold of myself and to keep from throwing up.

I have felt bad and drained all day and I am glad to be home and almost ready for bed. My whole body hurts and aches to where I don’t want to move. I wanted to publish a journal post to update everyone on how my day went. Sometimes it helps to let it all out to strangers. I am getting ready to lay down now and hopefully sleep. I think I will die when my head hits the pillow from being so exhausted.

I just wanted to check in and will call it a night but not before I wish everyone a good night and sweet dreams. Good night everyone.