Daily Journal 9/22/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family, old and new. I haven’t been here for a couple days due to my sugar dropping really low and my husband making me stay down because I have hit dangerously low levels. I love him so much because he really takes care of me.

This morning, my sister-in-law was having a bad emotional morning and crying because things just don’t seem to be going right this month. She was talking about giving up and disappearing from the world until my husband and I sat and talked with her for a bit while having coffee. Things have been going rough I’ll admit but we have been trying to stay positive.

As far as my writing is concerned, I have been working on the first round of editing to my Joshua manuscript plus I have finished the first chapter of a new book. I have been working so hard and the first chapter is approximately five thousand words. I expect this book to be a full-length novel and writing it with all my heart. The downside I think is because I write every detail pretty much because I want the reader to experience it as they read.

I am functioning this morning on only a couple hours of sleep because my medications didn’t kick in last night, so I had to force myself to lay down at five o’clock this morning. I feel pretty good this morning even with only a few hours of sleep. I feel a bit fatigued but other than that, things are okay. My sugar wasn’t that high this morning and my husband gave me my insulin.

I am sticking to my schedule today and will be writing a short story on my blog here in a few minutes so I better get ready so I will say goodbye for now and wish everyone a happy Friday. To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday!” Take care.

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Daily Journal 9/18/2017

Hello, everyone. I just got up from a well-rested nap and I feel pretty good today. It has been very stressful around here the last few days. It came down to us having to move because of a certain situation, but after discussing it several times we finally came to a conclusion that as of right now we are not moving because we feel we are being forced out by others living in this house so they can have their way and we are not taking it. They are not going to win.

My sister-in-law is having a really rough time right now with all of the stress and drama going on in the house that she has actually isolated herself to her bedroom because she doesn’t want to hear all of the excuses and drama anymore. She woke up this morning very depressed and my husband and I had to keep her company for a bit until she began to feel better.

I, myself, went to bed at a fairly decent hour last night and slept almost all night except for a mishap in my sleep, but woke up feeling good until I saw my sister-in-law. Things have been good for the week as far as my writing is concerned. I have finished my Joshua manuscript and it is ready for its first round of editing. I have the first chapter of my next book already written and look forward to writing the second chapter tonight. It has been difficult to write with people screaming and crying in the house but I will be using my headphones so I don’t have to hear it anymore.

Well, things should get very interesting around here over the next couple of days and I will leave you with that information until I write again tomorrow. Everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome evening. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/17/2017

Good morning, everyone. I am functioning on five hours of sleep because my medication still isn’t doing its job yet. Somehow my body clock has been changed to where I’m sleeping during the day and up all night. I am thinking it is because of all the drama and kids crying, screaming, and attitudes to where I am sleeping so that I don’t have to hear it and then up all night when it is completely peaceful and quiet.

Anyway, today is going good so far except now I am being asked to be the voice of children and having to move out of this house and next door to protect my husband from any false accusations. It is trying and frustrating because it will be that we have had to move five times in six months because of other peoples drama.

I am keeping positive about things but my husband is frustrated and it kills me to see him have to go through this again. There are other people living in this house who have five children that are loud and disrespectful and my sister-in-law feels that she bit off more than she can chew by having them live here because they are trying to be cheap about the bills and trying to stick her with most of the bills and she is on a very fixed income with hardly any money left over and they will be getting over a grand every month but only want to pay two hundred towards the rent and one hundred towards the power bill.

I hate seeing her go through this as well because these people are not looking out for her and she has health conditions that require someone to check in on her and they stay in their room most of the time sleeping. They hardly help clean the house and she is left doing everything and getting fed up with it. They really need to find a place of their own now that they can afford it. She is at a loss of what to do.

So, I will leave this for now because I don’t want my anger to build and then blow up at these people because they couldn’t handle it. To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have a pleasant Sunday. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/15/2017

Happy Friday, Everyone!! It is finally the end of the work week for most and I am so excited that it is over because of having to get up early to go to doctor’s appointments. I had another rough night last night with not being able to sleep even with my meds. I ended up going to sleep at about four fifteen this morning and was back up at six o’clock. I stayed up until about nine because I had to take my niece to the insurance office to get insurance on her new vehicle and when I got back home I was feeling funny and queezy so I went to bed and just got up.

I am feeling okay now and ready to get to work on today’s stuff. I have started writing my next manuscript and already have five hundred words of the first chapter written and hopefully will be finishing the first chapter today. I have so many books running through my head and it is fun writing stories as I see them in my mind like I am there with my characters. I feel the emotions and actions of them which makes it so cool.

Since moving here to my husband’s sisters house, we have been more relaxed and my husband has gone back to being the affectionate man he used to be. He took care of my feet yesterday by washing them and putting lotion on them. With me being diabetic and having health issues he does everything he can to take care of me.

Well, it’s time to get to work and start writing. I hope everyone has a great Friday and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and we’ll talk again tomorrow. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/14/2017

Today started out dragging because I had been up every hour last night running to the bathroom and being out of my night time medication. Plus, I had a doctor’s appointment to get new refills on my medication and she even raised some of the doses to see if it helps. I still feel wore down and fatigued but I am trying my best to stay up and not go lay down.

Yesterday was an awesome day because I finally finished my manuscript for “The Battle for Joshua” and now I can begin editing it and getting it ready for publishing. I have already begun writing my next manuscript which gives me a break from the first one so I can edit it with new eyes. My husband is so proud of me and shows his support every day.

I just need my motivation back to get pumping and complete my writing. I will keep positive and it will happen. I have plenty of books and blogs to write and things to keep my mind focused on instead of listening to all the crying, screaming, and attitudes of spoiled children. My husband gave me his headphones to block it all out so that I can write without distractions.

Another personal thing or accomplishment is that my blood sugar has remained manageable and somewhat in the low numbers. I have been glad of that and so has everyone else except for when it decides it wants to tank down to fifty-nine. Everyone starts handing me sweets to bring it back up.

So, today I will be positive and productive and leave the drama and stress at the door. I am now going to get some writing done and I want to wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else my wish for you is that Friday will get her soon and that everyone has an awesome day. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/10/2017

Hello, everyone. Sorry to have disappeared for a few days. I have been dealing with some health issues that we haven’t quite figured out what is going on yet. I have been so tired and feeling so fatigued that all I do is want to sleep. I have no energy for anything and it frustrates me because I don’t know what is causing it. It has been going on for a couple weeks now but I will be seeing my therapist on Wednesday to see if she might have any ideas.

I actually sat here yesterday forcing myself to stay up and created my book writing monthly goal sheet. With everything from writing the chapters to three rounds of editing to sending it off to a professional editor, I will be writing my current list of books well into February two- thousand and nineteen. Not considering any other books I come up with between now and then, lol. I have a few ideas for some more but I have jotted them down just until I get my already extensive list of books down some. I plan to stay busy and creative.

As far as how my day is going, it is manageable. Yesterday my nephew’s girlfriend celebrated one of her son’s birthdays with a party to which I pretty much stayed in my room. I have been feeling somewhat isolated the last week or so and don’t care to be bothered with anyone else. I put on that happy face for everyone in the house but my husband and sister-in-law know that I am not being real and hiding what is going on on the inside. I am a person who holds everything in until I find a safe way to release it. I call it throwing up to my therapist, lol.

I know that I am getting older because of the way my body aches and hurts but I try to stay young at heart. Walking is difficult at times because my feet haven’t been cooperating with me lately, or hurting so much that I can’t walk. My husband tries to get me up and walking throughout the day but it hurts so bad. I remember back in two- thousand and ten when I walked from Orlando, Florida to the border of Texas for a charity walk for the homeless and here I can barely walk about thirty feet without hurting or stopping to rest.

I need to find a way to motivate myself and to keep myself up during the day but cannot figure out what to do. I have no problem sitting up at night and I have stayed up until three or four o’clock in the morning without even being tired. Those are days when I would get up in the morning and stay up all day too. I don’t know but I will be seeing my primary care physician on the twenty- sixth of this month if it is not mental health being the culprit.

Well, I will stop here so that I can make use of my up time and finish the last chapter of my book “The Battle for Joshua”. I will begin the first round of editing tomorrow and look forward to sending it off to the editor. So, to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else have an awesome Sunday. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/6/2017

Good morning, everyone!! How are we this morning? I woke up feeling pretty good this morning and ready for whatever the day may bring. I have been working my schedule this morning and so far I am on track. I have informed everyone in the house that I will be busy working and will not accept any interruptions.

I will be completing my Joshua manuscript today and printing it up for editing. I will hopefully today or tomorrow be starting my next manuscript while having time set aside for editing the other one. I have a whole day scheduled for working and look forward to seeing my progress.

My writing is now my life and it makes me happy and gives me a feeling of completeness. My husband supports me in my endeavor and I thank him for that every day. Well, I need to get going on my next task, so to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday!” and to everyone else have an awesome hump day. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/4/2017

“Happy Labor Day, everyone!!” I did nothing but sleep today because I haven’t felt too good and then my sugar plummeted earlier and it made me shake real bad. I realized that I hadn’t eaten anything today after taking my insulin but we got my sugar back under control so all is good.

I have the first eleven chapters of Joshua printed up and ready for editing I just need to finish the last two chapters so I will have it completed in its entirety. I have been printing up and working on my addictions book notes and organizing the outline for the book. It has been less stressful being here with family and I just need to get my motivation back.

I have been feeling sick for the past few days with body aches and not being able to eat dinner for the last two nights. I walked to the nearest Dollar General to find an ethernet cable but only walked a huge blister into the pad of my foot which has now been doctored up to keep infection away.

My husband was going to soak my feet and then wash them and take care of them for me until I got this blister so now we have to wait until it heals. He takes really good care of me especially with me being a diabetic with mental health issues. I love him so much for everything he does for me and my dogs love him to death as well.

Well, it is back to work for everyone tomorrow and I will say my good nights now. To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else, have a restful night. Take care.

Daily Journal 9/1/2017

“Happy September 1st, everyone!!” I cannot believe this year is almost over and how fast it flew by. First, I want to send my prayers to Texas for their tragedy and wish the very best for them. Secondly, our power situation has been taken care of and everything can get back to normal. I am thankful that everything works itself out if you are just patient.

I am now working on my schedule since coming back from buying things for the house. I look forward to finishing my manuscript and beginning the editing process so that it can be published. I am excited to see my books published and shared with the world. I have one and a half chapters left to write before the first round of editing.

I am feeling pretty good today but still have some house work to do as well and have about two loads of wash to get done. The kids have had their dinner and are playing in their room so I can get the house cleaned and wash done. My mental status and anxiety have come down quite a bit and doing better.

Well, I have to stop here to get things done but to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else have an awesome Friday night. Take care.

Daily Journal 8/31/2017

Well waking up today was not a good thing. A person in our house whose name the power is in owed a bill from a previous address which they transferred onto this bill has not made a payment since April. Well, today they shut off the water and we are just waiting for the power to be turned off. No one gets paid until tomorrow and it will cost at least $470.00 to get power back on plus we had to have our car towed last night because we blew a head gasket which was just changed a few months ago.

So we are without a vehicle, the power is getting shut off, and when it rains it pours. Everyone is so stressed out and it is going to hurt us financially to have to pay the money but it has to be done. Some people in this house just don’t care to be responsible.

“News Flash” I just got word that by some miracle someone’s check came in early and a payment was made to the power company to keep the power on. So we will see what happens. I am always a skeptic especially when it comes to someone with a horrible track record of keeping their word.

On to a happier note, I just printed up all my notes for my next nonfiction book and will be working on getting the outline together while still finishing “Joshua”. I am almost finished with it and only behind schedule by two chapters which isn’t as bad as being three weeks behind, so let’s just say I have a little late night catching up to work on but will definitely get back on schedule over the next few days. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and to everyone else, have an awesome evening. Take care.