Daily Journal 11/14/2017

Good morning to all. It is chilly outside but nice at the same time. I started some new medication last night from my doctor visit yesterday and it seemed to help me sleep better. My husband said I didn’t beat him last night so evidently, it is helping. I feel pretty rested and ready to start my day and almost ready to post a new short story. It will be posted under the faith and love section of this website so I hope everyone gets a chance to read it.

My day is filled with writing tasks and getting things done since I have no appointments today except taking my great nephews to see a counselor this afternoon. I have some cleaning left but not much plus getting some laundry done. I am anxious about getting back to writing and finishing my next manuscript. I’m almost done editing one and sending it to the editor before publishing.

I will probably be publishing a couple books at one time in different genres. Money is tight right now so I will be using some money in December to cover the costs of editing and cover design. It is a process but I am going to enjoy it.

Well, time to get to work so I will wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else have a great day and don’t work too hard. Take care.


Faith Equals Hope

Sometimes when things don’t seem to go your way, that is when it is time to stop, take a breath, and know that you are not alone. Life was never meant to be perfect and anyone who says their life is perfect is probably hiding something. No one’s life is perfect and it never will be. We are just given the tools to survive and make it the best way we can.

Some people have or believe in a higher power and rely on it to help them in a time of need. I believe in my higher power and you will always find me talking to God and asking him for help just like he is a real person sitting here talking to me. This is when faith comes into play. If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains, at least that is what the Bible says. Everyone has their own belief system but it does work and I know this from my own experiences.

Faith does equal hope and I do believe that if everyone believed in something that our world would be a better place. Everyone needs something to believe in instead of man-made things. We are so imperfect that even our judgments are clouded. Just as with computers, they are only as good as what humans put into them. So you see, things are not always going to be perfect or good, but it is the choices we make that will make them better.

Having a higher power or something that you have hope or faith in can always make a difference in your life. Believe in the unseen, hope for the best, and things will always work out depending on the choices you make. I can only say that I have faith and hope that you will make better choices for your life and that it brings you happiness. Find something to believe in that will give you a sense of peace and joy.

Forgiveness Forgives All

The one thing I have noticed in my life is that forgiveness forgives all. Once I commit to forgiving someone it feels as though this huge rock on my shoulder finally rolls off hitting the ground. I feel less burdened and like I can finally walk straight with my head held high. Whether the other person forgives or accepts your forgiveness is on them but I will not take any resentment, anger, or grudge to those pearly gates with me. Once you have forgiven others, ask God to forgive you and He will. God only gives us what we can bear and He always gives us a way out. I have carried grudges, anger, and resentment most of my life and it has beaten my body down. My body feels 40 years older than it should because of all that extra weight I was carrying around for years. Once I decided to let it all go and move forward, I can now stand up straight with my head high and not feel burdened anymore. Do you ever stop to think that your body aches and pains could be because of a rock that is sitting on your shoulders, or the extra weight you are carrying around? Believe me, if you commit to forgiving others, and yourself, it will lift that load off of you and your body will thank you for it. So when you have time, stand in front of a mirror, or across from another empty chair and talk to that person and tell them you forgive them. Once that is done, forgive yourself for holding all that inside and not letting it go when you should have. Once you have done that, ask God for forgiveness and immediately you will feel the release of the chains that have held that rock or weight on your shoulders. Feel the weight roll off of your back and hear it crashing to the ground. Now stand up straight, look in the mirror and smile at the new person standing there before you. I challenge you to commit to forgiveness and see how much it can do for your life. Become a new creature and experience life with new eyes and sight. Have a blessed day.

Invisible Hands

Have you ever felt the little hairs on the back of your neck stand up or feel like something is standing right behind you? I feel that all the time, but I know that there is something standing next to me and guiding the steps of my feet. Throughout my life I have been beaten, raped, used and abused, and times where I should have been dead. Something always kept me safe. Safe from harm’s way, safe from other’s, and safe from myself. There was always this little voice whispering in my ear when I was about to endure something wrong or horrific. It always made me choose the best thing unless there was a lesson I needed to learn. I have felt those invisible hands pick me up off the ground and dust me off. I have felt my body being hugged and caressed.

While enduring a beating or rape, that little whisper told me just to endure and not fight back. I would be alright after it was over. I was a survivor and a better person for it. I learned many things and endured until the end of each and every event. But still, those invisible hands kept me safe and sane. To this day those hands have carried me a long way and when the days come where I can’t take it anymore or I feel I can’t go on, those hands pick me up and carry me while I rest.

I know some of you readers might not be religious at all and I respect that. It is hard to believe in something you can’t see, hear, or touch, but I can tell you if you look hard enough and sit quietly you can see something and you will be able to hear them speak to you. Sometimes I just sit and remain quiet like meditation and eventually I hear their words or I feel their presence. I am not trying to press or force someone into believing what I believe, but I do have faith the size of a mustard seed and I have no other explanations to what I have been through, but I’m still here dealing and living with my scars and nightmares. I can say if it had not been for those invisible hands I would have been buried in the dirt a long time ago.

Some of you may think that religion is a bunch of hogwash, but sometimes you have to think that when you feel the sun shining down on your face that you have a fuzzy warm feeling or a loving nurturing feeling in your body. So just remember, even though you can’t see something that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I thank those invisible hands for never dropping me or leaving my side. I would not be the person I am today if I did not endure until the end. It is those moments when you can’t explain something or how something ended the way it did. If you have ever been in a bad situation and survived, ask yourself “why or how?”. Maybe you have invisible hands looking after you too wanting to carry you in times when you are hopeless or tired. Just think about it.