Daily Journal 10/16/2017

Good morning, everyone. I can say it is a beautiful day outside, just a little chilly like a Fall morning. I have had my coffee for the morning and a nice hot shower. I have a doctor’s appointment around noon and then it is home to work on books.

I began the second round of editing on the second chapter of “The Battle for Joshua” and it is coming along nicely. There are not too many mistakes at all. It will be an easy read which is a good thing and I am anxious about publishing it. It will be going to the editor next week for a final edit.

I am getting better from being sick almost a month, but my husband has been coming down sick for the past few days. He is like me because neither of us likes to be sick. I feel so bad for him being sick but the only thing I can do is take care of him until he gets better.

We might have to take our five and a half-month-old puppy to vet because we noticed she has a large lump on the top of her head. It isn’t painful to her and could be a number of things but we need to find out if it is cancerous. She is my baby and I can’t see losing her.

Anyway, it is time for me to get ready for my appointment and I want to wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else a very Happy Monday!! Take care.

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Daily Journal 10/15/2017

Good evening, everyone. So sorry for it being so late but was doing some fall cleaning which needed to be done seriously. It has been an exhausting day with all the cleaning and what not but my mood is okay today.

I have been out of my fast acting insulin for a few days now and only surviving on the long-acting which has been doing good keeping my sugar down. I have been watching what I eat so that there are no sugar spikes. I will be going to a convenient care clinic tomorrow to get a prescription for fast-acting insulin because my next primary care doctor appointment isn’t until October thirtieth.

I felt good enough to cook dinner today which was roast with potatoes, carrots, and some onions. It came out so delicious and everyone liked it. I have not cooked a good meal like that in a very long time and told my sister-in-law that we need to go back to having good dinners on Sunday which used to be one of my traditions.

As for my writing, I am working on the second round of editing for “The Battle for Joshua” and have plans to send to the editor around the end of the month. I have begun the fourth chapter of my next book which is the first in a vampire series and I look to reading it when done.

My sleep has been broken again and then I got a call that I cant see my mental health doctor or therapist at this one clinic because of my Medicare insurance. So tomorrow I will be calling another place and seeing what they have to offer. I have seen this doctor before and she prescribed me medication that actually didn’t work for me so I am curious as to what she will give me now?

I am finally winding down being sick and now my husband is sick and not feeling well at all. He brags that he doesn’t get sick but sure enough, he was wrong and has what every other person in this house has and that is an upper respiratory infection with bronchitis. I am finally getting over mine and loving every minute of it because I hate being sick.

I should be able to get back on schedule tomorrow now that I feel better but we will see. I hope everyone had a great weekend and look forward to going back to work tomorrow? To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else I wish you to have a quiet relaxing night. Take care.

Daily Journal 10/12/2017

Morning, everyone. Today is day three since my blow up and it is still kind of a nightmare with the other family members in the house but all I can do is ignore them like they don’t exist. That is how I am coping right now. I can’t believe that he and they did us so wrong and all we did was look out for them.

Other than that, I will be doing some major cleaning of the kitchen today with my husband’s help. All of the food and dishes need to come out and the cabinets cleaned and bleached out. Pest control is going to be taken care of as well.

My husband and I got our new bed yesterday and we slept so well last night. I was still up every few hours to run to the bathroom but sleep was good. I am sitting here at the kitchen table with my sister-in-law enjoying coffee and she is getting ready to head back to bed for a few more hours due to all the stress around here.

I will be finishing up this post and starting on the cabinets since there is so much to do and I don’t want to be working on it all day. So, I will stop here and get started once I’m done with my coffee. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and to everyone else, have an awesome day.

Daily Journal 10/10/2017

Today has not been a very good day at all for me. Not only am I sick, but it just seemed like everything around me came crashing down this morning that invoked a mental breakdown. My husband and sister-in-law had to sick me down and let me cry for a few because I was feeling so angry that I just wanted to hit something.

Every little thing agitated me this morning and I became snappy at everyone around me and it just seemed like one thing after another came crashing down. I have come to realize that everyone else’s problems should be their own and not mine because besides having my own problems I have to deal with their issues and drama as well.

We moved our bedroom into the living room and our new mattress showed up this morning and the rest of our bed frame and everything should be here in the morning. My husband made a little corner of the room my corner so that it was my space. I can feel safe in my little corner without being bothered by anyone. This will be where I spend most of my time under the supervision of my husband so that I can remain safe.

I feel like I just want to isolate from the world again except through my writing. I have a heart of gold that wants to always open and help everyone around me even when it is detrimental to my own health and well-being, but I have to stop so that people cannot take advantage of my kindness anymore.

I want to devote myself to full-time writing so that I can share my stories plus make a better life for my husband, myself, and my dogs which are my babies. I cannot let everyone else’s drama interfere with my life anymore because it doesn’t help me and my family any and I am so tired of the stress.

Sometimes I wish I could just blink my eyes and my husband, babies, and I could just disappear to a deserted island or a place where no one else lived just so that I wouldn’t have to deal with other people. Even some family members are so screwed up that you know I go out of my way to help them and they slapped my face once and here they are getting ready to do it again and I can’t handle it.

Here we go again, I really feel like hitting something and getting all this pent up frustration out. I am going to put my face and mind in the computer and stay there and not deal with anyone else in this house except my husband. I have just had enough. I am canceling all appointments for tomorrow and just take some time for myself. I NEED IT!!

My therapist last week gave me an assignment to draw all the masks that I have ever used in life to hide the real me and give them a physical identity. It was supposed to be something I could do but right now the only mask wanting to come out would be anger and I need to roll my emotions back first before beginning this assignment. I apologize Jennifer that it is not possible at the moment.

Well, I need to get off here because I could rant and rave all day and it would not do me any good or anyone else. I want to wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else a glorious day.

Daily Journal 10/9/2017

Happy Columbus Day, Everyone! How is everyone doing this morning? I had a rough night last night with a bunch of coughing and having to pee all night long, but my mood is good today, so far. Yesterday, my husband, nephew, and I were moving rooms around since my nephew broke up with his girlfriend because her son kept beating up and bullying his younger boys.

She is gone now and things have been better around here as far as drama and stress. I still have to set our room up and put things away before coming into the kitchen for a thorough cleaning of all the cabinets and appliances. I’m also sitting here with my sister-in-law who may be pregnant and we are chatting about everything from her symptoms to how far along she may be and I think it is cute since I was never able to have any children.

Today will be a good day to work on writing because it is raining outside and gloomy so why not put my mind somewhere else than being dull because it is dull outside. I am going to close here to get started and wish everyone an awesome Monday. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today as well. Take care.

Daily Journal 10/7/2017

Good morning everyone. Happy Saturday! I hope everyone didn’t party too much last night? I went to bed early last night on account of not feeling good mentally and got up early this morning and cleaned the house and I am not sitting here after two cups of coffee drinking a diet soda and getting my daily stuff done.

Everyone is still asleep and it is quiet around here being eight o’clock in the morning. I made my enchilada’s last night for dinner with a small bowl of ice cream for dessert before going to sleep in my husband’s arms. Even the dogs are still in bed with daddy.

I am looking forward to a beautiful day that is overcast right now but it could be raining outside and I would still call it beautiful because the rain washes the air clean of pollutants. I was not able to stick to my goal last night due to mental issues but will be getting them done this morning.

I also need to get some marketing done for my two books that are already published on Amazon so I can see more book sales. I have started chapter three of the new book and it looks promising as far as my friends say because I have given them the first two chapters to read and give me some feedback.

This is the best time for me to write when everyone is still asleep because it is quiet with no distractions except the washing machine since I have many loads of laundry to do today because Saturday is when all rugs and bedding get washed and changed.

I know this is a holiday weekend for most of you and I hope you enjoy it to the fullest. It is time for me to get to work before everyone gets up and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else I wish for you to have an awesome Saturday and weekend and may your dreams and aspirations come true for you. Take care.

Daily Journal 10/6/2017

Goodmorning to all. I hope your day is going well? I have been up since six thirty this morning sitting here having coffee with my husband and sister-in-law. I am ready to get my day started and very motivated. It is beautiful outside for a fall morning and I will be sitting outside while completing the first round of editing on “The Battle for Joshua”. I should have it ready for publishing about the first of November.

Everyone here is in good spirits this morning and my mood is good. I slept for a few hours during the night but took a six-hour nap yesterday so I am good with sleep. I am looking forward to a peaceful weekend with no kids here and just us adults. It will be so nice.

So, today’s goal is to finish chapter three of the new book and to get the first round of editing done on the other. I am also going to get the rest of the house cleaned and another short story posted. So it is time to get started and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else have an awesome Friday. Take care.

Daily Journal 10/5/2017

Good morning all you special people of the world. It is a great day today and beautiful outside. I went to sleep with my husband last night at two o’clock this morning but woke up at five o’clock this morning fresh and awake. I am sitting here at the kitchen table spending time with my husband while he drinks his coffee and wakes up.

I have been working my schedule this morning and feel pretty good. My mood is in good spirits even though I am still battling being sick and coughing up crap. In a few minutes, I will be working on my next short story for the site and hope everyone has been enjoying my stories?

I am working on finishing the third chapter of my book today and will be editing “The Battle for Joshua” today per my schedule. I should be sending it to the editor on first of the month or sooner so that I can get it out to the public for reading. Well, let me get things going and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome day.

Daily Journal 10/4/2017

Hello, everyone. Sorry to have not been here but I have been battling a severe cold with my sinuses and lungs. I am on antibiotics and cough suppressant now which make me a little groggy. I have had no appetite and always sleeping, but I finally got to my primary care doctor and we are working on getting me back to better health.

Today I just found out that the roommates with five kids will be moving out which will take away a lot of stress and drama. It is bad when you are trying to write and listening to a bunch of kids yelling and screaming and the parents do nothing about it.

Today I finished up the second chapter to my next book and began writing the third chapter which I am finding it interesting where my story is taking me. It will be a book series and I look forward to writing each one. I am also learning about myself as I write which is a good thing.

My husband has been very supportive of my writing and he takes care of me when I am sick. I cannot believe I married my best friend and such a loving person as him. I thank each day for God bringing him into my life because I am truly happy with him. He makes me feel like I am somebody.

Well, it is time for me to say goodnight and I wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome evening. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 9/26/2017

Hello, everyone. Good evening friends and family old and new. It has been a day full of trials here at home and being sick does not help any. I have been sick since about Thursday evening and still dealing with the symptoms which have taken a toll on me today. I have already spoken to my husband and sister-in-law about precautions I am going to have to take since no one else in this house cares about my health.

The five children in this house have been passing upper respiratory infections back and forth because no one wants to wash their hands even after using the bathroom and do not cover their mouths when coughing or sneezing so I will be getting my own utensils, plate, bowl, and cup to keep sterile in my room.

Being diabetic and with a weak immune system, I am susceptible to getting pneumonia or worse and I will not allow these things to happen. My husband, sister-in-law, and I have agreed to go back to eating healthy since the others in the house love fried, greasy, and fatty foods which would do more harm to my health. So the bad foods stop here.

I finally have a good primary care doctor appointment set up for Monday to get my health back together. I have been dealing with hypoglycemia here lately to where the symptoms have been a little worse with each time. I need better diabetes management and better health care than I was getting from the health department. I made the effort and found someone I could trust with my health.

Now, on to my writing, it has been hard with me being sick and in bed, but I have managed to get the first one-thousand words of the second chapter of the new book written and should be writing some more this evening. I am trying to keep my spirits up so that I can enjoy writing again without all the distractions going on in this house but am hopeful that it will get better.

My husband just made me a snack because I have maybe eaten twice in the past four days due to having no appetite. So, I will say good night here and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome night. Take care.