Daily Journal 8/11/2017

Hello, everyone! I apologize for not writing until now. We have moved from the house we were living in and have gone off the grid for a bit. We are roughing it out in the boonies and have no internet as of yet. We are staying a few days with my sister-in-law so that we can take care of a few things online and plus we just bought brakes for our car and my husband will be installing them tomorrow because it is raining outside.

I have still been working on my book and will be able to send it to the editor around the first of the month before publishing. I am having a wonderful time writing my book and I find it very relaxing which makes it a good coping mechanism for my mental health. I am already looking forward to writing the next one and the ones after that. I have plenty of books to keep me busy for at least another year.

I just found out that my ex-husband and his new wife moved in down the street from where we were living so it was a good thing we moved from there before any drama got started. He and the woman they moved in with are both mine and my husband’s exes. They caused so many issues when we first got married it was unreal but they have been quiet for awhile now which we really appreciate.

We have been married for four years come October and we are still on our honeymoon so my husband says, but I feel that we are more in love with each other now than when we first got married. I love him so much and I am very thankful for him. He is truly my soul mate.

Well, it is time for me to get back to working on my book and relaxing. I want to wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else, have a very awesome Friday. Take care.

Daily Journal 7/31/2017

Well, today we made it to the doctor and my husband got his meds filled and I got a new medication that is to help me with my OCD and sleep. I am hopeful that it will help me because being around the people I am frustrates me because they live differently or do things differently than what I am used to. So, we will see how this next month goes and if it will help.

Other than that, my old roommate paid us a visit and didn’t even say two words to me but is supposed to be getting the rest of her stuff out of here on Friday, but it doesn’t matter because we are moving anyway which I am looking forward to. It will be nice to be away from here and getting a fresh start. Being out in the middle of nowhere might do some good for me mentally as well.

I am feeling a little better today but I am taking a few days off mentally from everything. I told my husband he gets to delegate things and take over for me while I rest my mind. I have too many things to get taken care of for me and I need to focus on that. I hope my husband can handle everything and not just sit back and let everything go.

Well, it is that time for me to get on to other things and want to wish everyone “Happy Birthday” that has a birthday today and to everyone else have a blessed day.

Daily Journal 7/30/2017

I want to apologize for not being here for a few days because I have been dealing with some things on the inside. Both of my therapists have moved on to better jobs and so I am waiting for new ones to call to set up appointments to meet. New roommates are young and need some training in basic essentials of living like cleaning up behind themselves and being respectful and responsible and it is hard for me with my OCD and anxiety to cope with it all.

It built up so bad today that I had a break down earlier with anger and crying and my mental mood is barely hanging on. I feel like I need to isolate again from everyone just to cope which sometimes that is not a bad thing. It has put a hindrance on my book writing because it is clouding up my mind where my creativity is being blocked.

I had to clean the house today just to keep from blowing up at anyone and it seems like the more someone says something to me the more I want to just blow up. So, my husband knows that it is necessary to keep everyone away from me today until I feel better. It is one of those “I want to punch a glass window” day which would lead to a hospital visit which would stress me even more.

I have been trying to play games on Facebook just to help me put my mind somewhere else and cope but it does little good. I will be seeing the doctor tomorrow about my meds because I don’t think they are helping much at this point or maybe it is just me. I feel like I have been misdiagnosed or there is a new condition that should be addressed but I will find out tomorrow.

Let me get off of here and get my mind elsewhere and maybe even get some writing done. Maybe I should start writing something new to release my anger like a book about being a killer. I feel homicidal but my husband would not like me telling him that right now. It is bad enough he is walking on eggshells around me and that he has been out of medication himself since yesterday so we will butt heads every now and then.

I wish everyone a “Happy Birthday” who has a birthday today and a blessed day for everyone else in the world. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 7/25/2017

Well, today started off good and everyone got some much-needed rest. Tomorrow we go out to the property and begin the cleanup process so that we can move in. After she told me about all of the snakes that roam around up there, I had dreams of snakes all night and one of the dogs getting bit. We have a lot of work to do but it will be worth it in the end.

I went and did some shopping today to get things we needed and the house is cleaned so now I can sit down and get started with writing. I look forward to getting Joshua completed so I can start editing it. I think it will make a very good read for most and I find it exciting while I write it. The proof will be in the finished product.

I showered, the house is clean, and now I can write to my heart’s content. I hope everyone had an amazing Tuesday and that your evening is relaxing and worth every minute of it. I want to wish a “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and that you have many more to come. I want to say good night now and have a blessed evening.

Daily Journal 7/24/2017

Well, I was up all night because I couldn’t sleep and finally laid down about nine this morning. Then I got up and we all took a ride out to the property where we are trying to move to take a look at what needs to be done. There is a lot of work to be done yard and land wise and some minor repairs to the inside of the trailer which isn’t bad but we can make it happen and livable.

We are going to go out there a few times this week to start the cleanup process and get everything ready for inspection with the goal to move in the first week of next month. It has an acre and a half of land for all the animals to roam around and when we pulled up there was a mother deer with two babies feeding in the yard which was cool to see.

I am still a little tired but I need to find some motivation to get things started today. I have made some great progress with taking my notes for my addictions book and I will be working on my fictional book a little today as well. Other than being a little tired I feel pretty good today and can’t wait to get started on this huge project of having a nice place to live. It is so quiet out there in the middle of nowhere and all the wildlife we will see every day.

So, let me try and get motivated and I hope everyone has a great evening. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today. Take care.

Daily Journal 7/23/2017

Wow! Three days in a row that I have the house to myself and peace and quiet. How can I be so lucky? I got to sleep in today and it’s just me and the animals who a playing in the living room. I just got finished scheduling my tweets and posts and look forward to another day of getting my notes together for my next book in the “How I Survived” series and currently working on my first fictional book. Which is almost completed and ready for editing.

Things look brighter each and every day I wake up and I hope that it keeps going like this. I feel good today and have gotten all of my chores done even some that were outside. The animals have been fed and are happy and that makes my day to see them happy. I look forward to each new day now and it feels pretty good. I have gotten away from pretty much everything that has to do with drama and stress and it feels pretty good.

I am excited about being only two chapters away from finishing my fictional book and can’t wait to begin the editing process before launching it. There are only three more days left before my husband is off probation and he is excited about that but so am I. It opens up freedom for both of us. We can move wherever we want without having permission and that means we can go on vacation now like we are planning to do.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and didn’t party too hard? I have spent the whole weekend working on notes and book writing which is relaxing for me. I find myself off in another world when writing and it makes me forget about all the stress and drama that goes on around me. So, it is now time to get back into taking my notes and I hope everyone has an awesome evening.

“Happy Birthday!” to everyone with a birthday today. May you have many more.

Daily Journal 7/22/2017

Hello, everyone. It is such a gorgeous day outside but I’m spending the day alone inside writing. Everyone has left for the day to take care of some things so I again have some alone time to write. I am sitting here with my roommate’s kitten resting on my lap and my husband’s puppy driving me crazy because all the other dogs are asleep and she wants to play. All she is doing is whining at me.

Anyway, the house is all to myself and the cleaning is done so I can sit and relax while writing on my book. It seems like it is taking me forever to write it but I think it will be worth the effort and time I have spent working on it.

I know this will be short but I am going to go lay down for a bit I am starting to get a headache but I will be back later. Take care and I wish everyone an awesome Saturday!

Daily Journal 7/21/2017

Good evening, everyone! Happy Friday!! I slept in a little today which is great for me and have gotten quite a bit of my daily schedule done. My husband is off with our roommates running some errands so I am here with the animals with some peace and quiet. I finally finished chapter ten last night of Joshua and will be doing chapter eleven today. It is coming along nicely and it should be launching by August fifth, that is the goal anyway.

My plans for this weekend are pretty much the same as every weekend, writing my book. I like writing and it is a coping mechanism for my mental health. I just took the dogs out for some outdoor time and the puppies found a branch they wanted to play with so I brought it inside since they are teething they have something they can chew on but it will take them awhile to even break some of it up.

Today I feel pretty good and I seem to be happy so far since being back on meds and the doctor making the dosages higher. Now if I can just get my husband to clean up his man cave we will be good. We are still up in the air about moving to a place of our own since the old roommate keeps saying she is moving back in since the house is still in her name which we were going to let the landlord know she moved out and if he would rent the house to us so we could stop her from moving back in.

We are going to try and stay here for another month until this one trailer opens up September first and then we could move there and have plenty of space for the dogs to run and play. My main concern is having a large enough yard for them to run and have fun. These are my kids and I want to provide for them.

Well, it is time to get writing and I look forward to seeing some feedback on all of my writing and hope everyone has a wonderful evening. “Happy Birthday” to everyone who has a birthday today and may you have many more. Take care and God Bless.

Daily Journal 7/20/2017

It was two o’clock this afternoon when I woke up and feel somewhat rested. My neck was a little sore which gives me a slight headache. Other than that, everything is going pretty good. Our roommates outside dog started bleeding from his nose and mouth and we can’t figure out why, but she is asking everyone for prayers over “Rebel”.

I have begun writing the tenth chapter of my book and hopefully will be finished this evening with this chapter. I look forward to editing it and making it the best it can be before sending it to the editor. I will also be working on my notes for my addictions book because it will be so large that it will take a minute to complete but it is side work to all the other books I will be writing.

I still have some things to do today but you readers are more important so you get my attention first. I look forward to any feedback on my posts or short stories which will help create better writing.

It is time for me to work my daily list so I wish everyone a “Happy Birthday” if today is your birthday, and to everyone else, I wish for you to have a very awesome evening.

Daily Journal 7/19/2017

Happy Hump Day!! It is the middle of the week and only two more days until Friday. Are you not excited? I am doing good today. I am back on my meds regularly and my sugar level was 103 before dinner, so that is amazing for me. My sugar has been running 400 or better for the last year, so it is a major improvement.

I have been writing my book and I am almost finished with it, I just have two more chapters to go to have a full-length novel. I have been pretty mellow today and can feel some motivation for writing. I have also been working on getting my notes together for my other book which has been called a beast.

It is going to be a big book, or more like a manual for addictions. I am happy writing it in hopes that it will help a lot of people. I battled with a lot of addictions and know what it does to people and hard it is to overcome but I did it.

Anyway, I wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else an awesome evening. Things are great with me today and I am going to enjoy an evening with my husband and watch some movies. We had a good dinner and now it is time to wind down for the evening. So, have a great evening with your loved one.