Daily Journal 2/24/2018

Hello everyone. I just got finished cleaning the house and now I can sit and relax until dinner time. We are at our friends’ house sitting with their dad and it has been nice. We brought four of our five dogs with us and they get along great with their four small dogs. Our nine-month-old lab has gone into heat so we are just going to have a good old time with her. At least they only have two boys and one is gone with our friend and the other one here is too small to reach anything.

It has been nice being here and their dad is good people and we have awesome conversations. I have been able to sit and relax and now since everything is done I can work on my writing. It has been great weather here for being February. I call it a heat wave with our temperatures in the upper seventies and eighties.

I will be starting to write the second book that I finished the detailed outline on the other night so that will be two works in progress that I hope to publish soon. I have been doing some marketing and have had two of my book read in the Kindle lending library and a few downloads of my free book, “The Battle for Joshua”. I am having a great time writing and I know it will take patience before sales really start picking up more.

Well, I have a short story to finish and post on the site and wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else an awesome weekend. Take care.

 

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Daily Journal 1/29/2018

It’s a quarter to midnight here and I am about to play some games to wind down for bed. It has been a grueling day for me with so much going on. I got up this morning, had one cup of coffee, and then had to clean house since it isn’t going to clean itself.

There are three grown adults in this house but I seem to be the only one who cares what the house looks and smells like. Everyone curses the roaches but doesn’t seem to help me get rid of them and keep them away.

I have cleaned my room and the dogs’ room every day and took a break from cleaning the kitchen to see if anyone else would clean it? It sat with almost every dish dirty in the sink and on the counter, but no one seems to care.

To me, a filthy house is chaos. It drives me crazy. I guess that is part of my OCD. Everything has to be clean and organized before I can even sit and relax. So today I started cleaning the kitchen but was not happy about it and I made it clear to everyone in the house.

I seem to be everyone’s maid, cook, and secretary. No one can seem to help or do stuff for themselves and I can’t wait to see my therapist in the morning so I can vent to him, lol. Tomorrow is my nephews’ divorce court hearing and I had to print up the divorce packet, fill it out, and then drag him down to the courthouse to file it.

I understand that he has mental issues but this is the third time I have filed this paperwork for him because his wife manipulates him. She threatens to take his kids who he has custody of unless he cancels the divorce hearing and so he does.

Everyone relies on me too much to do things for them and I have to figure out a way to break the cycle. If I take a break from cleaning, the house will get filthier and then it will just drive me crazy and I can’t function enough to write or do anything else for that matter.

It’s like I try to concentrate on writing, but the house has to be clean and smelling good for me to relax enough to get the creative juices flowing. So I get up and do everything just so I can sit and focus. Everyone gets on to me because I sit locked away in my room writing and working on things for my book like advertising, blogging, and tweeting.

I love being alone in that sense and don’t care if I ever go outside as long as there are books to write. There are not enough hours in a day for me to get everything done. Right now everyone is asleep and I enjoy the peace and quiet to be able to write.

Sometimes I get up early in the morning and get the coffee going and dogs out so that I can get some writing done before the chaos and drama wakes up around here. I will figure something out soon. I just have to have some faith. So I want to say goodnight to everyone and “Happy Birthday” to everyone who had a birthday today. I wish you many more. Take care everyone.

Daily Journal 1/24/2018

Hello, everyone. I am sincerely apologetic for not keeping up with my posting. Even though I am on antidepressants sometimes the depression does seep through. I have had blah days and feeling depressed for about the last week to ten days. It seems the more I try to fight it the stronger it gets. I have spent a lot of the time in bed and having no motivation.

Today I feel a little better and I am trying to get things done and caught up. Sometimes it is just hard to get motivated when your entire body hurts and you feel so tired. Getting my third book published finally has been exciting and I have been working on two other manuscripts with the goal to have at least two books published a month.

Believe it or not, the writing has been good therapy for me and it gives me a break from reality while I write. I get to disappear into a world that I created and it feels like I am right there watching the story unfold. Yes, the problems will still be there but with a mental break from them, when I come back out of the story my mind has had a break and I am more apt to deal with them instead of letting them stress me out.

I hope everyone had an awesome weekend and completed the plans they had made. We have had some nice sunny days here and I have been going outside to feel the sun on my face. It is so relaxing to be outside for me.  I will try to come out of the depression and post every day just so everyone can see how I am and what progress I have made. I wish everyone an awesome evening and a “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/29/2017

“Happy Hump Day to everyone!” How are my friends and family doing today? I feel awesome today! I am alive and breathing. I woke up this morning with goals on my mind and a to-do list that I really haven’t started yet, lol. I had to run an errand to the doctor’s office and have been sitting here checking emails, updating files, and getting things ready for writing and editing.

My husband has been stuck in front of the television since he got up playing video games but that is what he does. It gives me my time to work on to-do lists and writing uninterrupted. I love him to death but sometimes his game playing gets on my nerves because he has tunnel vision and doesn’t want to do anything else.

We took our dogs to the vet around the corner for their booster and rabies shots which they weren’t too crazy about, but they lived. It hurt me to hear them scream in the next room while getting their shots. Then they came running back to me for security and comfort, lol. They are such big babies with big barks.

I am halfway through the last edit of “The Battle for Joshua” and then off to the editor. I am still writing my next book and love falling into the story as I write. It is a vampire series but not a romantic one that has been around. It is a story of love and tragedy, but in the end, it is of royalty and reign.

Anyway, I am having a great day and I hope that my evening is the same. For all of you with birthdays today, “Happy Birthday” to everyone else, be blessed with an awesome evening. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/28/2017

Good morning everyone. how are you today? I am doing pretty good this morning and had to reschedule my doctor’s appointment because my transportation got screwed up. So, that is just more time I can spend writing,

I will have finished editing “The Battle for Joshua” by the end of the week and ready to send to an editor. I am writing the fourth chapter of my next book which will also be a series. I have more time to write now since everything is back to normal here in the house and my husband and I are in the process of buying some property that we can build our house on. That is very exciting.

I hope everyone is enjoying their week so far? I will be looking for some readers for my book to give me some feedback on it before publishing it. It will be a freebie book. If interested in being a reader for me just send me an email at bpayne43@live.com.

Well, time to get to work. I will let everyone know when the book is ready for readers which should be this weekend, So, to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have a spectacular day and love those around you.

Daily Journal 11/25/2017

Good Morning everyone. How are we doing this morning?  I woke up feeling pretty good this morning and have been doing things around the house and I have made my to-do list for the day. Everyone is having coffee together and watching one of the nieces play the PS4. It has been a pretty good morning so far and I look forward to the rest of the day.

My writing is progressing nicely and I am still on schedule towards my goals for publishing. I spent a few hours last night editing the next chapter of “The Battle for Joshua” and it will be the freebie for my mailing list. I will be writing the fourth chapter to my next book today which is part of my goal because I have a plan to write a chapter every day.

As far as my long distance goal is concerned, I have enough books to write until December of next year. It will be a couple of books per month which will build my list of published books. I want to be a career writer which is my main goal.

My husband and I are looking into buying some property in another state which will be better for us in the long run. We are tired of renting and always having the threat of being evicted and having slumlords who don’t want to fix anything but want their rent money.

We are looking to have something we own and enough space for what we need to be comfortable. We will be homesteading while we build our dream house. It will be a fresh start for us and we have been needing this for a while. We are very excited about this and are making our plans to get started.

Well, I hope everyone is having an awesome Saturday morning and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have a good and relaxing day and enjoy your family time this weekend. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/22/2017

Hello everyone that is not traveling a long distance today to be with family. Those of you that are traveling, you will be in my prayers for a safe travel and return. Well, today I would be prepping for Thanksgiving dinner but this will the second year in a row that I am not cooking due to no money to purchase any food for dinner.

Tomorrow, my husband, sister-in-law, and I will be spending a quiet day and evening at home with each other. Usually, I am the one cooking and I cook a very large meal, but with finances being the way they are, we cannot do it this year. We probably won’t be celebrating Christmas either because of funds being low. It is okay though, we don’t need money to celebrate holidays.

I began writing some more on my short story which is over three thousand words right now and I still have quite a bit more to write. I will be leaving shortly to go to therapy and he would like to see samples of my writing which makes me feel good. I love writing so much that I go through withdrawals when I am not able to write. My husband thinks I’m crazy but my writing is my escape like his video games are his escape.

Anyway, I will keep this short and sweet today but I will be posting again tomorrow. Everyone whose birthday is today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else be safe while traveling and have an awesome evening. Take Care.

Daily Journal 11/21/2017

Hello and good morning to all. Sorry for it being a few days for my post but I have been doing a massive house cleaning. By the time I was done I was exhausted and needed a nap. I got up and made dinner and have been sitting here working on my short story while eating butter flavored popcorn. I am doing okay so far mentally but still waiting for my medications to get into my system good and then I’ll be balanced out.

My writing is going along pretty good and I am excited and addicted. I can’t see myself doing anything else but writing. I have checked my writing through an app and it says that my readability is grade 6 or 7 so they are easy reads which is what I like because then most people can read my books. I don’t believe in using really big words and want them easy to read.

I woke up around nine o’clock this morning and the first thing I had to do other than using the restroom was taking my dogs out while trying to drink my first cup of coffee. It has been getting a little colder outside and feels like a winter morning with the temperatures being in the thirties all week overnight. So, since I don’t really like the cold due to my arthritis it gives me an excuse to stay in and work on my writing.

Since I started writing, I have become somewhat of a hermit because of my addiction to writing. I try to spend time with my husband and dogs as much as possible but he stays in his video games a lot so it gives me another excuse to sit at my desk and write. My day usually consists of working on the next short story, writing on the new book, and editing the finished book plus using social media to announce my progress and accomplishments.

I am pretty busy but still manage to keep the house cleaned and meals cooked. I manage the household money and make sure the bills get paid. I have plenty of books to write that will get me through the next year and look forward to the next adventure in writing. Well, I will stop here and wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else a glorious day. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 11/18/2017

Good Evening everyone. How is your weekend going so far? I am good today, my husband says that my new medication is working because for the past few nights I have not been fighting in my sleep or beating on him. I have been sleeping soundly and not able to hear anything. My husband gets to play his game in peace while I sleep or write.

That brings me to this morning. I got so caught up in my writing last night that my husband was waking me up from my sleep because I fell asleep at my desk. He made me go get to bed. He laid back down with me until I fell back to sleep and then he got up and made the coffee. I woke up at fifteen after seven and felt wide awake until a few hours later when I was nodding off again at my desk trying to get some more work done.

I started to write a short story last night and will be finishing it tonight. It will be placed on my website under crime drama thriller page. I love writing because I can express myself and it is a coping mechanism for stress and anxiety. My sister-in-law loves reading my stories along with some other people. I have so many stories in my head that need to come on paper and I plan to get every one of them into books for everyone to read.

How was everyone’s Friday night? Did anyone party a little too much, lol? It did not even feel like it was Friday night. I stayed home with my husband watching movies before getting on my computer to write.  He is waiting for me to get another book done so he can read it. Well, it time to get to work and I wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an incredible Saturday. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/17/2017

Morning dear friends and family. How are we doing this morning? I woke up feeling pretty good and I know it is because they increased the dosage in some of my medications plus gave me a new one to keep the nightmares away. Thank you so much doctor for that because that is the main reason why I haven’t been sleeping much and beating my husband up while I sleep and he thanks you for that, lol.

It is another beautiful day here in Dalton, Georgia with the sun shining and hardly any breeze but there is a mild chill in the air. It was decent enough to take my dogs out and hang outside for a while. I came back in and made the bed and cleaned up around the house and now I am ready to get to work.

I sat here last night and got another chapter edited and will be back to writing on the new book today. I am so excited to get back to writing that it isn’t even funny. I have been going through withdrawals not being able to write. Now that things are pretty much calmed down I can take care of business. It has been a slow progress with all the drama that has been going on but now it is over and a nice quiet place to sit and work on my writing.

I’m hoping to have two books ready for the first of the month to publish and get out into the world and a few more in December ready for the first of the year. I am looking for people who would like to read an early copy and only asking for those people to leave a review on the Amazon website. If interested please send me a message with your email address and I will put you on the list to receive a copy once they are edited and before their launch.

Well, it is time to stop here and get to work. I have a short story to write and post on the site and I wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome Friday. Take care.