Daily Journal 8/20/2017

Good morning everyone! It is such a beautiful day and everyone had such a great night last night. We all sat out in the yard listening to music and dancing. It was fun watching the kids dance and have a good time. It was a huge sleep over with a total of fourteen people hear last night staying the night. We all had a great time.

Today is a cleaning day and even the kids are cleaning the house. The adults are sitting here at the table having coffee and waking up while I sit here writing. We are almost done moving our stuff to here and then trying to organize will be next. Once everything is done I can sit and begin writing and finish my manuscript. Things are becoming better and we can now relax and breathe a bit.

So to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesome Sunday. Take care.

Daily Journal 7/31/2017

Well, today we made it to the doctor and my husband got his meds filled and I got a new medication that is to help me with my OCD and sleep. I am hopeful that it will help me because being around the people I am frustrates me because they live differently or do things differently than what I am used to. So, we will see how this next month goes and if it will help.

Other than that, my old roommate paid us a visit and didn’t even say two words to me but is supposed to be getting the rest of her stuff out of here on Friday, but it doesn’t matter because we are moving anyway which I am looking forward to. It will be nice to be away from here and getting a fresh start. Being out in the middle of nowhere might do some good for me mentally as well.

I am feeling a little better today but I am taking a few days off mentally from everything. I told my husband he gets to delegate things and take over for me while I rest my mind. I have too many things to get taken care of for me and I need to focus on that. I hope my husband can handle everything and not just sit back and let everything go.

Well, it is that time for me to get on to other things and want to wish everyone “Happy Birthday” that has a birthday today and to everyone else have a blessed day.

Daily Journal 7/11/2017

Hello, everyone! How are we doing today? It is such a beautiful day outside and my mental health status is doing pretty good today. Physically, my body aches a little but not enough to make me stay in bed all day being unproductive. My husband got up today and actually swept and mopped the floors for me. We are waiting for one of his friends to come help him with the transmission to our truck so that we can get it running.

I have gotten my to-do lists created and ready and I feel pretty good about it. Things have calmed down since the roommate left. I feel less stressed and my husband has been better as well. We are meeting with his case worker today to find out about our housing voucher for a place of our own. They will help us pay the rent for a year so that we can get stable financially.

I feel good about our future and making a living as a writer. Realistically, my goal has changed and will be that I should have at least thirteen books published this year. We will see, but for now, my hopes are upwards of that. I have plenty of time to write and find solace in my writing.

Well, I just got some bad news, our roommate is coming back and I instantly felt my stress level rise to becoming overwhelming. I spent a whole week getting this house cleaned from cat spray and dog urine to know she is coming back to make the house nasty again within the first week of her being here.

I have already agreed and stated to myself that I am not going to cater to her and that my goals and deadlines are more important than her. My husband will probably stay in his man cave quite a bit just to stay out of the conflict. She is going to be mad as hell because I will be refusing her, but I don’t care anymore. I need to live for me and my husband and our kids.

Sorry, I am venting some of this stress right now. I love all of my friends and family on here because you are all good listeners. I don’t know when she will be here, but I will definitely let you all know because I will need to vent again, lol.

Time for me to get some writing done but to everyone with a birthday, and you know who you are, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, I wish for you an awesomely blessed day. Take care.

Daily Journal 7/1/2017

Well, yesterday was a long day for me. Fighting with Amazon to get my manuscript right on the upload but I managed to get it up on there. I now have two published books up on Amazon and I feel pretty good about that. Here at home things are becoming stressed out, again. We go through this every month with our roommate about how she is moving out and her attitude changes. I have gotten to my wit’s end and now I am on another journey. I am so busy doing for everybody else and taking care of everybody else that it has hindered me from doing anything for me. Now, after talking it over and showing my anger with my therapist we decided it is time for me to do me now. To hell with everybody else and do things for me.

I am not sure if my husband understands that because of his tunnel vision for sleep, television, or video games but I do know that I don’t think he understands what all this is even doing to me or how I feel on the inside. He made the statement the other night how I am always stressed, well damn look at what I have to go through. He is right though, being here is a huge stressor and we need a place of our own. Our mental health team is working on that because both of my therapists deem this an unsafe environment for us and are looking to get us out of here asap.

I want to thank all of you, my readers, for listening and encouraging me to move forward and providing me the strength and support I need. I do appreciate each and every one of you to the fullest. I am so glad that I created this place to vent and it allows everyone the chance to get to know me and see that I am just another human that makes mistakes. But enough of that I still have a full list of to-do items to get done today and need to get started. For those who have a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else, I wish a happy and blessed Saturday. Take care.

Daily Journal 6/27/2017

Good morning everyone. It is seven twenty this morning and the sun is shining. Today is the day that I get my test results and I am full of anticipation. I am waiting for the coffee to finish brewing and was up until three this morning because I couldn’t sleep. How are all of you doing this gorgeous morning?

I am working my schedule this morning since I redone it last night. I have to incorporate any doctor visits in it so that everything will still get done. I will be finishing a short story I have been working on for a few days this morning. I will also get some writing on my book did before leaving for my doctor this afternoon and then about another hour more when I return home.

I sat working on my monthly goals last night and everything looks good and efficient. I am a list person who creates a list of everything every day that needs to get done. I have been working lists for as long as I could remember. It helps me stay focused and I seem to accomplish almost everything on my list every day as long as there is nothing to deter me.

I feel pretty good today, not so much anxiety but that could be because of lack of sleep too. 🙂 I just woke my husband up with a cup of instant coffee because our coffee maker refuses to brew this morning. I am not going to buy another coffee maker because it seems that every time I put a little money to the side for book publishing expenses, something always comes up that I need to spend that money on. I refuse now to spend any more of my book money on this house.

My roommate buys things and then lets her animals tear it up and I am not going down like that. I have done everything that I can to keep this house clean and getting rid of roaches just for her to go behind me and leave messes and food laying around that draws more roaches. She really gets me with that.

Well, I need to move on to my next scheduled thing and wish everyone a blessed and prosperous day. I want to wish everyone that has a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and I will post an update when I return from the doctor today. Have a great day!

Daily Journal 6/26/2017

Hello, everyone. I have been so stressed out lately and it has been showing. Tomorrow I get to learn which Hepatitis I have and how much liver and kidney function I have remaining. Not knowing is the hardest part. Now, on top of a hernia, I have to deal with these issues as well and tomorrow my life will change, again. I have spent the last few days printing up information on all the different types of Hepatitis, their causes, their treatments, and anything else I could find. All I know right now is that my liver is enlarged and I have fatty liver disease. It is just so frustrating.

I did not get out of bed today until one o’clock this afternoon. My mental health doctor called to reschedule my appointment for next Thursday which means I will have to go another week without some of my medications, and my therapist was supposed to be here today but she texted me to reschedule for Wednesday. Today has just gone to crap like I need more.

I started back writing my book again yesterday to try and put my mind somewhere else and it worked for a little bit. I guess once I hear the news tomorrow I will know how to live again. We cannot figure out how I got Hepatitis in the first place. My liver enzymes were slightly elevated in blood tests last June but it was not a big concern. I have been trying to motivate myself back into my writing by telling myself that I could die from this and I need to get all of my books done. That has been helping me, lol.

Well, I am going to try and get back into writing and see where that world takes me. For everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesomely blessed day.

Daily Journal 5/31/2017

Hello, everyone. It has been the craziest week for us. First, we live with someone who has multiple personalities and we never know which one we are dealing with half the time. She has been told several times and even before we moved in here that I am a writer who has deadlines and schedules, does that matter, no. Every time I turn around it is something with her. She can be so hardheaded that it makes me ill.

Yesterday, for example, she wanted to go to the store and get some things on credit, but when she got home and found that her available credit remaining on her prepaid power was only $6.oo, she began flipping out and tried to take off in her car knowing she can’t see. I pawned my laptop to be able to put some money on the power bill but she would not let me use the car, so I had to walk approximately three miles to the power company knowing I am not supposed to be walking that far without hurting really bad.

I made it there, but my sugar had dropped way too low and I called my husband to let him know I would be stopping for a little bit until my sugar can regulate. It isn’t fair that he gets pulled in between her and I and I am always apologizing to him for us being here in the first place. I regret moving here sincerely but I have informed his case worker we want a housing voucher that would get us into our own place. I have realized that she is a threat to my mental health and it needs to be corrected fast.

I apologize that I am throwing up my issues all over the place but sometimes you readers are my only outlet for my stress and anxiety. Tomorrow I plan to stick to my new schedule come hell or high water and will be soon finishing my second book since I have had a few days worth of setbacks. Thank you to everyone who listens when I rant and rave but everything will get better. I have to think positively. 🙂

I wish everyone a great day and be blessed in your endeavors.

Daily Journal 5/6/2017

Hello, Everyone!! It is so good to be back. I finally got my internet installed here at my cousin’s house and now I can go back to writing to all of you wonderful people who encourage me to share my stories. I would have written yesterday which was my plan but I ended up having a very bad and stressful day that caused me to isolate from everyone.

Then, to top it all off, I went down to code enforcement to get the permit for the electrical only to find myself opening a pandora’s box of other issues and now it looks like we will have to undo all of our hard work from this house and try to salvage what we can and at least get part of the money back. So, we are stuck here at my cousin’s house until we can find a place to live.

My cousin wants us to stay here but she is bipolar and that doesn’t mix well with our mental health issues, so this is only temporary. Every day is a new drama scenario which makes it very difficult to write or even keep a clear mind for creativity.

Today seems to be a better day and now I am able to sit and write. I am working on three books at the same time, writing a half of a chapter to a whole chapter almost every day. so they should all be ready for publishing at the same time. I have plenty of books to write this year and look forward to each story and being a part of that world. It will be a nice escape for me and I am seriously considering a writer’s retreat to get away and be to myself and my writing.

Well, I have some short stories to post and look forward to another day of writing. I wish everyone old and new a beautiful and blessed day. Don’t forget to give a smile to someone to brighten their day. Be blessed.

Daily Journal 4/21/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family old and new. It is a beautiful sunny morning here and actually quite cool. You can feel the cool moisture in the air and I hear the birds chirping. My husband is just now getting up and the dogs are still laying around. I have had one cup of coffee and my husband is making the next cup. I am looking forward to the day and my writing which makes me very happy. I was up a little late last night working on my next book. I am currently working on the second chapter and I already have 2500 words written for the current chapter.

I am thoroughly enjoying this book because I can immerse myself into the story and I write what I see and feel. I will have a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction when I am ready to edit this book which will be a freebie. I cannot wait to share my stories with the world and I do believe they will be worth reading. I am very creative and I always find something to create whether it be a drawing I have done, arts and crafts projects which I recently made scented candles for a nonprofit fundraiser to help the homeless and needy families, or writing my books. I love what I do and encourage others to do what they love.

Today looks to be a good day so far and will get right to work on my book shortly. I hope everyone has visited my amazon page to see my first book which I have been told that it is a much-needed book and I feel the rest of the series will be my way of helping others. I would love and appreciate some reviews on it and will be building my ARC team soon for reviews. Well, it is time to get started while I have one and a half cups of coffee in me and I wish everyone a great and blessed day.

Daily Journal 4/2/2017

Hello everyone and Happy Sunday. It has been a beautiful day at my sister-in-law’s house and have spoken to my husband twice today. It’s doing me some good to get away from the tent and my stepmother and I am feeling pretty relaxed. I have been spending most of the day taking notes from some book publishing courses and will be doing some writing here shortly. I was up with my sister-in-law until about one o’clock this morning working on my book.

I have one of my older dogs with me here and miss the other three at home. I miss my husband but we needed this time apart from each other. I will be going home tomorrow and then back to the new house on Tuesday to do some more work on it. It is hard to get it done fast on a fixed income but we are managing. My sister-in-law is pretty agitated with her current situation and wanted some company so we can lean on each other.

I have gotten back on my medications regularly now and I seem to be leveling out and becoming more stable. For most of the people around me, that is a good thing. Well, it is early evening here and the sunset is beautiful. I am able to sit relaxed and think a little more clearly and have become a little more productive instead of sitting in a funk because of my mental status. Everyone has been very supportive and enlightening.

I have learned some new things within my publishing notes, webinars, and study courses. It has been an awesome experience learning all these new things to get my books ready for the world of becoming a published author. I learn things through my writer groups on facebook and see how many of them are very supportive. I look forward to checking in every day and seeing what new things have been going on and what I might have missed.

So, everything on my end is mellowing out for now and I can only do things to keep positive but God knows I am going to hate to have to go back to that house and tent tomorrow. I have to because I miss my husband and other dogs and they are the only reason I am going back. Well, let me get off of here and get some writing done and I look forward to my next update tomorrow so I wish everyone an awesome and blessed day.