Daily Journal 8/31/2017

Well waking up today was not a good thing. A person in our house whose name the power is in owed a bill from a previous address which they transferred onto this bill has not made a payment since April. Well, today they shut off the water and we are just waiting for the power to be turned off. No one gets paid until tomorrow and it will cost at least $470.00 to get power back on plus we had to have our car towed last night because we blew a head gasket which was just changed a few months ago.

So we are without a vehicle, the power is getting shut off, and when it rains it pours. Everyone is so stressed out and it is going to hurt us financially to have to pay the money but it has to be done. Some people in this house just don’t care to be responsible.

“News Flash” I just got word that by some miracle someone’s check came in early and a payment was made to the power company to keep the power on. So we will see what happens. I am always a skeptic especially when it comes to someone with a horrible track record of keeping their word.

On to a happier note, I just printed up all my notes for my next nonfiction book and will be working on getting the outline together while still finishing “Joshua”. I am almost finished with it and only behind schedule by two chapters which isn’t as bad as being three weeks behind, so let’s just say I have a little late night catching up to work on but will definitely get back on schedule over the next few days. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and to everyone else, have an awesome evening. Take care.

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Daily Journal 8/30/2017

Morning, everyone. How are we doing today? I wish I could say my day started off good, but it didn’t. When you have a family meeting and people are not willing to give in to compromise or allow someone to help to make a situation better is just so frustrating. Then, for them to make a statement that you accused them of not caring about their kids is hurtful when it was not meant that way and that was not even insinuated.

It just throws your whole day off and makes you not want to say anything else because it will be interpreted the wrong way. I will just keep quiet from now on and bury myself into my writing and save up money to move into our own place so that I won’t be a problem for anyone anymore.

I know that I might sound like a wuss but because of my mental health status, it makes me very vulnerable to people’s words. I take things so hard that it just happens and then the rest of my day is depressing and everything is hurtful and I find myself crying all day that it makes my husband frustrated because he can’t fix me.

Well, that is enough of my depressing talk, so I will end this post here and hopefully have a better tomorrow. To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesome hump day. Take care.

Daily Journal 8/25/2017

Good evening, everyone. How are you all doing this Friday evening? Any party goers out there? We have finally gotten our room set up and cleaned up and now my work station is ready to go back to writing.

It has been a rough day for me because I woke up not feeling good and slept in until sometime this early afternoon. Then, to top it all off, my husband and I get into an argument and stop talking to each other for a few minutes until we both calmed down and then we talked it out. We are good now and he is trying to fix his PlayStation 4 controller to play a game.

I still feel a bit out of sorts but will be taking it easy the rest of the evening and going to bed early to get enough sleep. I am anxious to get back to writing and getting my book together for editing. It will be my first fictional book and I am very excited about completing it. I am almost ready to print up my book notes for my next nonfiction book in my series, “How I Survived” and also look forward to publishing it.

The drama and stress are now subsiding and I feel a little better about our living situation and hopefully, by the end of the year, we can have enough saved for our own place, which is what we both want. There are just too many people living in this house with five of them being kids age twelve and under. With all of the yelling, screaming, and fighting, it is hard to get any writing done or being able to hear myself think. I will be doing my writing during the week while everyone is at school and it is quiet here.

Well, it is time for me to say good night and as always to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesome night. Take care.

Daily Journal 8/22/2017

Good morning, everyone. Did everyone get to experience the lunar eclipse yesterday? We were supposed to get a total eclipse but only received a partial which was still cool to see. We finished our last load of stuff from the dilapidated trailer and into my sister-in-law’s house yesterday and now it is time to settle in until we save up enough to get our own place. My whole body ached really bad from moving but we got it done.

We are going to be setting up our room today so that I can set up my work station for writing. I look forward to getting back to writing and seeing what other creative juices I can open the flood gates too. My list of books and outlines are still waiting for me to begin so it is imperative that I get back to writing so that I can share my stories with the world.

Well, it’s that time to get my day started. I wish everyone with a birthday today, ” Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have a great and awesome day. Take care.

Daily Journal 8/20/2017

Good morning everyone! It is such a beautiful day and everyone had such a great night last night. We all sat out in the yard listening to music and dancing. It was fun watching the kids dance and have a good time. It was a huge sleep over with a total of fourteen people hear last night staying the night. We all had a great time.

Today is a cleaning day and even the kids are cleaning the house. The adults are sitting here at the table having coffee and waking up while I sit here writing. We are almost done moving our stuff to here and then trying to organize will be next. Once everything is done I can sit and begin writing and finish my manuscript. Things are becoming better and we can now relax and breathe a bit.

So to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesome Sunday. Take care.

Daily Journal 8/18/2017

Hello, everyone. It is a hot but beautiful day here in Dalton, Georgia. We are staying at my sister-in-law’s house because we have been screwed over so much lately that it was going to force us to sleep in our car until she offered to let us stay with her. We are going to save up our money to get a place of our own. We will never let anyone live with us again or stay with anyone else because it is ridiculous how people love to take advantage of another person for personal gain.

I love staying with my sister-in-law because she too is OCD about cleanliness and we get along so well. We are going today to get the rest of our stuff from the dilapidated trailer that our previous roommates tried to get us to fix and make livable. We are tired of being used, abused, and having our kindness taken for a weakness.

I will be able to get back to writing now which was very helpful with my mental health status. I should be able to finish Joshua this weekend and begin editing. I have been so stressed out lately that writing was not possible. I could not think clearly and constantly worrying about things. Now I feel more relaxed and my creative juices can now flow and get back to what I love, writing.

Now it is time for me to get some things done like cleaning the house and then setting up my work station for book writing. I look forward to each day now and being very happy with my husband whom I love very much. I wish everyone could have a loving and caring relationship like ours. So let me say goodbye for now and I wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have a great Friday.

Daily Journal 8/11/2017

Hello, everyone! I apologize for not writing until now. We have moved from the house we were living in and have gone off the grid for a bit. We are roughing it out in the boonies and have no internet as of yet. We are staying a few days with my sister-in-law so that we can take care of a few things online and plus we just bought brakes for our car and my husband will be installing them tomorrow because it is raining outside.

I have still been working on my book and will be able to send it to the editor around the first of the month before publishing. I am having a wonderful time writing my book and I find it very relaxing which makes it a good coping mechanism for my mental health. I am already looking forward to writing the next one and the ones after that. I have plenty of books to keep me busy for at least another year.

I just found out that my ex-husband and his new wife moved in down the street from where we were living so it was a good thing we moved from there before any drama got started. He and the woman they moved in with are both mine and my husband’s exes. They caused so many issues when we first got married it was unreal but they have been quiet for awhile now which we really appreciate.

We have been married for four years come October and we are still on our honeymoon so my husband says, but I feel that we are more in love with each other now than when we first got married. I love him so much and I am very thankful for him. He is truly my soul mate.

Well, it is time for me to get back to working on my book and relaxing. I want to wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else, have a very awesome Friday. Take care.

Daily Journal 7/31/2017

Well, today we made it to the doctor and my husband got his meds filled and I got a new medication that is to help me with my OCD and sleep. I am hopeful that it will help me because being around the people I am frustrates me because they live differently or do things differently than what I am used to. So, we will see how this next month goes and if it will help.

Other than that, my old roommate paid us a visit and didn’t even say two words to me but is supposed to be getting the rest of her stuff out of here on Friday, but it doesn’t matter because we are moving anyway which I am looking forward to. It will be nice to be away from here and getting a fresh start. Being out in the middle of nowhere might do some good for me mentally as well.

I am feeling a little better today but I am taking a few days off mentally from everything. I told my husband he gets to delegate things and take over for me while I rest my mind. I have too many things to get taken care of for me and I need to focus on that. I hope my husband can handle everything and not just sit back and let everything go.

Well, it is that time for me to get on to other things and want to wish everyone “Happy Birthday” that has a birthday today and to everyone else have a blessed day.

Daily Journal 7/30/2017

I want to apologize for not being here for a few days because I have been dealing with some things on the inside. Both of my therapists have moved on to better jobs and so I am waiting for new ones to call to set up appointments to meet. New roommates are young and need some training in basic essentials of living like cleaning up behind themselves and being respectful and responsible and it is hard for me with my OCD and anxiety to cope with it all.

It built up so bad today that I had a break down earlier with anger and crying and my mental mood is barely hanging on. I feel like I need to isolate again from everyone just to cope which sometimes that is not a bad thing. It has put a hindrance on my book writing because it is clouding up my mind where my creativity is being blocked.

I had to clean the house today just to keep from blowing up at anyone and it seems like the more someone says something to me the more I want to just blow up. So, my husband knows that it is necessary to keep everyone away from me today until I feel better. It is one of those “I want to punch a glass window” day which would lead to a hospital visit which would stress me even more.

I have been trying to play games on Facebook just to help me put my mind somewhere else and cope but it does little good. I will be seeing the doctor tomorrow about my meds because I don’t think they are helping much at this point or maybe it is just me. I feel like I have been misdiagnosed or there is a new condition that should be addressed but I will find out tomorrow.

Let me get off of here and get my mind elsewhere and maybe even get some writing done. Maybe I should start writing something new to release my anger like a book about being a killer. I feel homicidal but my husband would not like me telling him that right now. It is bad enough he is walking on eggshells around me and that he has been out of medication himself since yesterday so we will butt heads every now and then.

I wish everyone a “Happy Birthday” who has a birthday today and a blessed day for everyone else in the world. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 7/25/2017

Well, today started off good and everyone got some much-needed rest. Tomorrow we go out to the property and begin the cleanup process so that we can move in. After she told me about all of the snakes that roam around up there, I had dreams of snakes all night and one of the dogs getting bit. We have a lot of work to do but it will be worth it in the end.

I went and did some shopping today to get things we needed and the house is cleaned so now I can sit down and get started with writing. I look forward to getting Joshua completed so I can start editing it. I think it will make a very good read for most and I find it exciting while I write it. The proof will be in the finished product.

I showered, the house is clean, and now I can write to my heart’s content. I hope everyone had an amazing Tuesday and that your evening is relaxing and worth every minute of it. I want to wish a “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and that you have many more to come. I want to say good night now and have a blessed evening.