Well, yesterday was a long day for me. Fighting with Amazon to get my manuscript right on the upload but I managed to get it up on there. I now have two published books up on Amazon and I feel pretty good about that. Here at home things are becoming stressed out, again. We go through this every month with our roommate about how she is moving out and her attitude changes. I have gotten to my wit’s end and now I am on another journey. I am so busy doing for everybody else and taking care of everybody else that it has hindered me from doing anything for me. Now, after talking it over and showing my anger with my therapist we decided it is time for me to do me now. To hell with everybody else and do things for me.
I am not sure if my husband understands that because of his tunnel vision for sleep, television, or video games but I do know that I don’t think he understands what all this is even doing to me or how I feel on the inside. He made the statement the other night how I am always stressed, well damn look at what I have to go through. He is right though, being here is a huge stressor and we need a place of our own. Our mental health team is working on that because both of my therapists deem this an unsafe environment for us and are looking to get us out of here asap.
I want to thank all of you, my readers, for listening and encouraging me to move forward and providing me the strength and support I need. I do appreciate each and every one of you to the fullest. I am so glad that I created this place to vent and it allows everyone the chance to get to know me and see that I am just another human that makes mistakes. But enough of that I still have a full list of to-do items to get done today and need to get started. For those who have a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else, I wish a happy and blessed Saturday. Take care.