Daily Journal 5/21/2017

Good morning everyone. I hope everyone is having a wonderful morning. It has been raining here all night which made for some good sleeping. I feel refreshed this morning and ready to get some writing done. I was up until three o’clock yesterday morning working out my goal and deadline calendar for my books and each goal every day is reachable. I have enough books to write until April of next year which should be approximately forty-three books published.

I have been awake for about thirty minutes now and my husband has made me a cup of coffee which tastes very good this morning. It is still a bit overcast outside but it feels fantastic. I look forward to completing my next book by the end of this month and having it ready for editing. It will be a freebie to all my subscribers and a sample of my fictional writing. I have already sold twelve copies of my first published book and I am very proud of that and expect to see that number rise over the next few months.

Well, it is time to get into my writing and I hope and wish everyone an awesome and blessed Sunday. Keep those smiles moving along and making a brighter day for someone else. Be blessed.

Daily Journal 5/17/2017

Hello to all of my friends and family old and new. I want to apologize for not keeping up with my journal and keeping in touch with each of you. It has been a trying month so far and it has taken a serious toll on me physically and mentally. We moved in with my cousin who has been declared legally blind so she needs some help around the house.

I have been cleaning the house for an entire nine days, pulling everything out of the cupboards, wiping them out and washing every dish in the house. You would think that it would be easy enough until you are continuously interrupted to do something else. I have been having other issues physically that makes it hard to stand for long periods and some dizzy spells. My husband has been so good with support and helping me get things done.

Today we finally got the kitchen and dining room completed with deck brushed floors and cleaned walls. There is still the living room to go but my husband has agreed to do it for me so that I can go back to writing where I am happy the most. I have missed my writing and I know that it disappoints some of my readers but I promise that things are going to get back to normal and my writing will thrive.

It has been hard for me mentally not being able to write and my husband and therapist noticed it clearly and are doing whatever they can to get me back to that point of being content. I am making some changes and will be initiating them tomorrow when I wake up. I have missed chatting with everyone and letting you know what I have been up too and writing updates. So, it is getting late and I want to get some things done to be ready for tomorrow. I wish everyone an awesome night and have a blessed morning.

Daily Journal 5/2/2017

Good morning everyone! I do apologize for not being here lately, but we had an offer from my cousin to move into her house while working on our own house so that we are not living in a garage. It took us two days to move stuff by car but we are getting it done. We are having to refinish the bedroom floor so that we can move into the bedroom but for now we are sleeping in the livingroom, but WE ARE INDOORS, YAY!

I am still currently working on next book which looks like it will be a full-length novel but will be a freebie to all subscribers to the newsletter. I am actually working on three books at one time which are going to be freebies in three different genres. I am pushing right along. My husband cleaned out a year’s worth of trash from my cousin’s garage in exchange for a 1991 ford explorer which will be our second vehicle that will be used for our nonprofit helping the homeless and needy families.

I just wanted to give an update on what things are happening and to let everyone know we are okay. I wish everyone a glorious and blessed day.

Daily Journal 4/11/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family old and new. It is a gorgeous Spring day here with the sun shining and the woodpeckers doing their thing. Well, it is official, our tent is unlivable. The last thunderstorm we had with high winds ripped the whole backside of the tent at the bottom. We are moving up to the garage where we can stay out of the weather. It will only be for about a month because my goal is to have the house inspected during the first week of May and be in it by the middle of May. I am staying positive because we put too much money into this house to let it go now.

Today is a good day too. It is also shopping day for food. There are some pretty good deals going on that I am going to take advantage of. My husband hates to go shopping with me but I feel it is spending quality time with each other. Now, as far as my writing is concerned I have almost all of my outlines done for my coming books and the freebies too. When it comes time to write that book the outline is already done and I just need to pull it and begin writing the book.

Well, I need to get going I have many things to do today and time is wasting away so I hope everyone has a great day and be blessed.

Daily Journal 4/10/2017

Good morning everyone!! Such a beautiful day outside and peaceful. I have had my cup of coffee and I am now ready to get my day started. I hope everyone had a great weekend? As for myself, I have been sitting outside on a blanket brainstorming some books and enjoying the outdoors. I keep telling my husband it is time to start going fishing which I love to do in my free time. I find that very relaxing too but not as much as writing.

I am going to be working on my marketing strategy today and advertising my book everywhere I can. Becoming a published author was a goal for me and I am so glad that I accomplished it. It feels good to know that my story is being told and I hope that it helps so many people.

I have my to-do list ready for today and I will be going through receipts for my nonprofit organization so that I may complete its tax return. A percentage of my royalties will go towards the organization so that I may continue to help the homeless and poverished families. That too was a goal for me since I spent twenty-three years being homeless. I have compassion for those still out there trying to survive and want to help them become self-sufficient before they die out there.

Well, this will be all for now but I wish everyone an awesome Monday and a blessed one. Keep those heads up and those smiles going because anything is possible.

Daily Journal 4/7/2017

I am so excited today. I just published my first book and it is live on Amazon. Here is the link to check it out.

https://www.amazon.com/author/brandipayne

I am having a good day so far and now it is time to get my marketing on the ball.

I am setting up my email list and working on some novellas, or short novels, and will be giving away some freebies soon. I hope everyone is having an awesome day and be blessed.

Daily Journal 4/3/2017

Today I came home but my day started off crappy because when I went to get in the car to go it wouldn’t start. I tried several times and then it would start, run for a few minute’s, then it would die. My sister-in-law’s fiancee had to drive out to pick up my husband to come fix it. When he arrived he instantly found out the problem and corrected it and then we drove home. When we pulled into the driveway, we were met by my other dogs who were ecstatic to see me. I want to say it felt good to be home, but it really wasn’t. I was happy to be reunited with my husband and dogs, but I seemed to get depressed with the thought of being here again.

I appreciate everything my father-in-law has done for us but his wife just gets under my skin too quickly. Everything was going great today until I went to make some peanut butter and jelly sandwiches since that was all we ate today when my step-mother-in-law started in on me again about how we need to help pay their bills and put food in the house. I have already explained to my husband why I refuse to put any food in their house because one, our food money has gone way down below a hundred dollars, and two, she wastes so much food. She could make a full pot of spaghetti that we eat half of at dinner and then wants to throw the rest to her dogs.

She doesn’t believe in leftovers except for her nasty pinto beans that we have to have two nights in a row. We took care of them for almost seven months with food and paid half of their electric bill for a couple of months and that doesn’t mean anything to her. We are living in a tent and running power by a drop chord so I know that we are not running that much electric but she has to complain about everything except for her side of the family who can do no wrong. They are perfect and better than everyone else.

Anyway, we are going to sit down with them tomorrow and talk and we might just have to leave and be out in the streets until we get this house inspected which now has been pushed to the first week of May due to financial reasons. We gave them the last thirty dollars we have and it isn’t good enough for her. So, whatever happens tomorrow I will keep you updated.

On a quick brighter note, I have got my whole plan of writing set up for the rest of the year. I have my goals set in place and will work towards that to keep my spirits up. Well, I wish everyone a good night and sweet dreams. Be blessed.

 

Daily Journal 4/1/2017

Happy April Fool’s Day Everyone!! Have you pulled off that prank today yet? I feel like everything is pranking me so far today. The car battery is dead, we don’t have enough money to cover all of our bills, and everyone has their hand out for money. We were supposed to go to the house this morning but it seems like everything is trying to hold us back. I am taking a break from home for a couple of days because it is really starting to take a toll on me living in a tent that is becoming unlivable, the stepmother constantly complaining, and not being able to finish this house fast enough. We have the money for the inspection but don’t have the two-hundred dollars for the utility deposit to get power turned on. It is becoming depressing and aggravating. I wish I could blink my eyes and everything would be okay.

On a brighter note, I will be spending a night or two at my sister-in-laws to get a break away but I will be taking my computer with me to continue writing since that is basically the only thing that relaxes me anymore. I find myself diving into the world of my story and nothing around me matters or affects me. I can find peace inside my story and I know that it is bad considering I am married and need to show my husband attention every now and then. He supports me the best that he can and I do love him dearly. I have been writing my second book for about five days now and feel pretty accomplished and cannot wait to have it in my hands.

My writing has become an intense passion and an antidepressant at the same time. I long to write and feel guilty when I take a day or two off because I have so many stories to share and my head is full of more ideas that I cannot write them all down without taking time away from my work in progress. I have a schedule that I try hard to adhere too but even that is hard to do with everything going on around me. I will get things straightened out eventually but I must stop here to get my day going and hopefully getting more done on the house. Talk soon and have a great an awesome Saturday everyone.

Daily Journal 3/30/2017

Good morning everyone. How are all of my friends and family doing today? I have been up for about an hour and still a little groggy from going to bed at four o’clock this morning. I had a couple of bad days but I am trying to feel better. I canceled my therapy appointments for today and rescheduled them. I realized last night that I had not taken my medication since Sunday night and that is probably why I have felt bad for a couple of days.

I have to take my husband to the back doctor this afternoon and then run a few errands.  I hope today is better than the last few days. I could really use some encouragement today to give me some motivation. I have plans on going to the house tomorrow to finish up what needs to be done and we have already talked to an inspector and will be making an appointment next week for inspection. I am going to be at the house both Friday and Saturday to finish up.

I just took my insulin because my sugar has been high due to stressors lately and I will be working on some writing today when we get back. I have been doing outlines for the fictional series and still writing my second book which will take a few weeks probably to write. On the side, I am also going to be gathering some pictures for a children’s short story to be published on a blog site. So you can see I have quite a bit of stuff going on to try and keep my mind busy.

My husband installed our air conditioner here in the tent so that I won’t get so hot being in here. I love my husband so much because he supports me with everything I do. I don’t think I could make it without him. He encourages me, reminds me, and loves me even when I need a shoulder to cry on. He is having his coffee while playing a video game before we leave. That is his coping mechanism when he needs it and I don’t mind because it keeps him busy while I write.

Well, I need to get this published so I can get ready to go and will be back soon to finish working on my book. I wish everyone a great and blessed day. 🙂

Daily Journal 03/29/2017

Hello, everyone. Today could not be much more beautiful than it is right now. It is in the lower 80’s, slight breeze, and all of God’s creatures doing their daily habits. Yesterday was a bad day in disguise. I was okay at my sister-in-law’s house and around family, but once we got home to our tent, things went south. There was a power loss while we were away which fried our wireless router to start things off. Then, having to deal with the internet provider to send someone out to check things and bring us a new router. Before all of this, on the drive home I started to feel anguish, torment, and depression all at once. By the time we had gotten home I was in full blown fallout which caused the first argument my husband and I have ever had in our three and a half year marriage.

The funny thing about it, it was blown all out of proportion by the stupidest thing, the car overheating. I am canceling my therapy sessions this week because I really don’t want to be around anyone, I guess that is why the writer’s lifestyle is a perfect match for me. I am just so done with living in this tent and being around this woman that really just makes me sick because she thinks she is so much more above everyone else.

I now know that it is time for us to get into this house before I have a complete meltdown and tell this woman what I really think of her and cause more undue stress for my father-in-law who doesn’t deserve it. Yes, he has enabled her to be like she is, but I don’t want to be the reason he has a heart attack or stroke because of her over-the-top complaining and bitching. The guys have asked me to bite my tongue but I don’t know how much more stress I can take. To just hear this woman’s voice makes my skin crawl, and I am not exaggerating. So, I will go lie down for a minute because my head is scrambled right now and it is taking a toll on my body. I wish everyone an awesome Spring day and be blessed.