Good morning everyone. I am up early this morning when I should be sleeping in on a Saturday. I know most of you must have had a long Friday night and are sleeping off the partying, lol. My husband and I are having coffee right now and I have taken the dogs out and then they wanted playtime which it is too early for that right now.
I am beginning my schedule this morning with this posting being the first thing on my schedule, so all of you come first every morning. I am doing pretty good this morning and I think the depression is coming under control now. It was a hard couple of weeks battling it. It looks promising this morning for me to get things done.
I have finished another chapter in my next manuscript which I have two manuscripts in progress at the same time. I hope everyone has grabbed a FREE copy of my latest ebook from this site? It has had a couple of good reviews and it is a very interesting story I think. Some of my family has enjoyed reading it. I am looking for some feedback on it, so if you have a few minutes please share it or comment on it. It took a few months to finish it, but I finally got it published and the paperback is on Amazon, but you can get a Free copy of the ebook before it goes on Amazon.
Well, it is time to get going on the rest of my schedule and I do wish everyone an awesome Saturday. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and many wishes for more to come. Take care.
Happy St. Patricks Day Everyone! Did you have your green on today? Did you kiss the Blarney Stone or were you too busy chasing that little leprechaun trying to catch his pot of gold? It was an okay day for me, not too much going on. My husband and I had doctor appointments this morning and we only had enough money to get his prescriptions but I am good on medicine until the first of the month. He needs his more than I need mine is the way I look at it. After that, we came home to the tent and went back to sleep for a couple more hours since we had to get up so early.
My lower back has been burning and hurting all day, so much that I almost went to tears. I took my pain medicine and it just didn’t seem to help. I take it like it is prescribed and sometimes only as needed because I am not one who likes being “high” and without control. If I have to drive somewhere in the morning, I will skip the morning dose because I don’t drive under the influence.
I haven’t been sleeping well lately and my anxiety is up there. My anxiety and nerves are so bad that it is causing me to have hives again. I am still battling with some depression or the after effects of it because there is little motivation and I have to sit here and force myself to write because I have placed goals and deadlines on myself for my writing. I do not want to see failure and feel the regret of not finishing or completing my goal.
Being in this tent plays a large part in my depression because I want to be in this house so bad. I want to be back indoors living a normal life even though I try to live a normal one now in this tent. I stay isolated to this tent because I also suffer from a social disorder and I feel safe isolated away from everyone. That is what makes me a good writer because I have no distractions and no social life except for my husband and sister-in-law. My husband thinks it is funny when I have to go shopping because he can never keep up and he says it is like I am running a marathon because I can’t sit still very long around people. I feel that I am prepared enough that I can just go in get what I need and get out. So he stays in the car while I shop so I don’t wear him out.
The dogs have been really good since we have been here and my father-in-law says they are great at killing the rats around here. 🙂 We have a rabbit outside in a pen that the dogs just love to go inside and play with her. We have had her since she was a baby. She likes to play with us and it is funny to see her slap the food bag out of your hands. My animals are what keeps me going although I still have bad days where my mind is full of bad thoughts. I’m sorry if it seems like I am rambling on but I see no sense in sugarcoating anything and I feel that I need to tell it like it is.
If it weren’t for my husband I think I would have fallen apart long ago. He is my rock and shoulder to cry on when needed. He has his issues, but he places mine before his mostly. It is so hard for me to sit here right now because my back and hips are really achy. Well, I think I have bored everyone enough now so I will end here and I wish everyone a great evening. God Bless.