Daily Journal 7/30/2017

I want to apologize for not being here for a few days because I have been dealing with some things on the inside. Both of my therapists have moved on to better jobs and so I am waiting for new ones to call to set up appointments to meet. New roommates are young and need some training in basic essentials of living like cleaning up behind themselves and being respectful and responsible and it is hard for me with my OCD and anxiety to cope with it all.

It built up so bad today that I had a break down earlier with anger and crying and my mental mood is barely hanging on. I feel like I need to isolate again from everyone just to cope which sometimes that is not a bad thing. It has put a hindrance on my book writing because it is clouding up my mind where my creativity is being blocked.

I had to clean the house today just to keep from blowing up at anyone and it seems like the more someone says something to me the more I want to just blow up. So, my husband knows that it is necessary to keep everyone away from me today until I feel better. It is one of those “I want to punch a glass window” day which would lead to a hospital visit which would stress me even more.

I have been trying to play games on Facebook just to help me put my mind somewhere else and cope but it does little good. I will be seeing the doctor tomorrow about my meds because I don’t think they are helping much at this point or maybe it is just me. I feel like I have been misdiagnosed or there is a new condition that should be addressed but I will find out tomorrow.

Let me get off of here and get my mind elsewhere and maybe even get some writing done. Maybe I should start writing something new to release my anger like a book about being a killer. I feel homicidal but my husband would not like me telling him that right now. It is bad enough he is walking on eggshells around me and that he has been out of medication himself since yesterday so we will butt heads every now and then.

I wish everyone a “Happy Birthday” who has a birthday today and a blessed day for everyone else in the world. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 5/25/2017

Good morning everyone! It is a cool Thursday morning here in Dalton, Georgia and an awesome day for writing. I want to thank everyone who has been following me and those who have just begun following me on Twitter. I really appreciate your support and to those on Facebook, you are very appreciated as well. I love writing my stories and have just finished another chapter in my second book which is fictional and I have a deadline of May 31st to have the first draft completed and ready for editing.

On Monday, I was supposed to have a procedure done on my neck for pain management but due to my sugar being in the 300’s they recommended that I reschedule for June 12th. I have been working on trying to control my diabetes and I have made some progress but continue to be positive.

I am almost back on my regular schedule now for writing and have found that I drift off into my stories and live them as I write. I have my calendar set up with deadlines and goals to have all my book outlines turned into written books and it is pretty easy to follow. Since its publishing back in April, I have sold twelve books and look forward to there being more in the coming months.

As far as my health and mental status are concerned, my writing is my outlet to disappear from all the stress and drama that surrounds me. It makes me feel better to write and be inside of my stories like I am right there in the action. I am maintaining six other blog sites for short stories each with their own theme or genre, so it seems I am always¬†writing which is a good thing. It keeps me out of my husband’s hair as he puts it and he knows that it helps me with my stress and anxiety, so he supports me with my writing and has even helped me with some plots and outlines.

Well, I must get back to work and just wanted to give you an update on how I am doing thus far. Again, thank you for all your support and to those who purchase a copy of my book, if you could be so kind as to leave a review on the site where you found it I would really appreciate it. I wish everyone an awesome day and a blessed one.