Daily Journal 4/3/2018

Today has been such a free feeling for me. I have had nothing but stress and drama for the last few weeks outside of my own household. Today, I have been able to free myself from all that hinders me and my marriage. I am no longer responsible for people who don’t appreciate anything, want to control everything, greed for money and materialistic things, and drama filled lives. It was becoming such a burden on my life and mental health status that lots of bad things were beginning to happen within myself. I have put myself on hold for so long and doing for others, OUTSIDE of where we live, that it now feels like I can shed that old tired skin off and live life the way it was meant for living.

I do not speak for my husband, but I must refrain from associating with his side of the family to keep myself positive and moving forward. They live differently than what I am used to and have different values than my own. It seems that what is pleasing and satisfying to them, makes me feel like I am just stuck in a sphere or frozen state never moving forward and only being content with dullness. It seems that some of them only survive to take what they can get from others, sucking the very essence and life out of everyone around them.

I guess it is true that misery really does love company and they are a perfect example of that. No one can really be happy around them and it is liberating to be free from them and only being able to live and be happy as only I know how. Like I said, I cannot speak for my husband, and I will never keep him from them, but we have a better life ahead of us and God will be leading the way.

Now, on to better notes, I am regaining a piece of me that had hid for a few weeks not knowing when it would be safe to poke it’s head out and enjoy what life has to offer. I am shedding off hinderances and putting back up on the shelves childish things to use what God has given me. It has been a rollercoaster ride for the past few years with lots of family leaving this life and moving on to a better place without pain and sorrow. There are not too many of the elders left and when they are all gone it would be hard because of no one being there to answer my still sought-after questions of life and advice. The world is going to hell in a handbag and I refuse to sit around and let life pass me by.

Today, I begin writing again and exploring fantasy so I can escape from what ails me. Sometimes, it is good to get away and relax on that white sandy beach watching the white-capped waves as they roll in. I have been so distraught over life that I seriously need a break and will find that in my stories. One of my future books will change or be deleted because of family drama. Writing it would bring ill feelings and I don’t want to return to that negative place.

I hope everyone had an awesome Easter with family and friends and I will end this post here and bid everyone a good night. Before I go, I do want to send prayers out to someone I know who is in the hospital right now and for a speedy recovery because he is missed here at home. 🙂

 

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Daily Journal 3/16/2018

Good morning to all my friends and family. It is about ten minutes to ten in the morning and the day looks beautiful. I started planting my seeds the other day to start our garden and have been tending to them daily. I can’t wait to see my little seedlings just so that I can begin talking to them.

Sorry I had to stop and go back to bed. I saw my back doctor yesterday and he increased my pain medication which took it all out of me this morning since I hadn’t had medication in a couple of days. That is part of the reason why I haven’t posted as much because of the discomfort and pain that I was having to endure.

When they did the neck procedure on me, it relieved about seventy percent of the pain in my neck but opened it up for me to feel everything going on in my lower back. From the lower back all the way to the bottom of my feet I feel pain and discomfort enough to keep me from concentrating on what needs to be done. It was an awful experience for me. I do not tolerate pain very well.

Anyway, I am doing better today and look forward to catching up on everything. I want to get back to writing my books and seeing them published soon. The goal now is to have two books published next month. I have two works in progress and I am having an awesome time writing them. I have missed writing here and keeping you all up to date on my life and events.

Anyone with a birthday today let me wish you a very “Happy Birthday” and I hope everyone else has a very awesome Friday and “Happy Weekend”. I need to go now and get some things done and completed before the day’s end. Have a great Friday night and will post again soon.

Daily Journal 1/31/2018

Hello everyone. How are you doing today? Happy Hump Day! The weekend is coming closer for all those who don’t work weekends. This morning I had the procedure on my neck and it went very well. I thought I would panic with them putting injections in my cervical spine but I felt hardly anything. It could have been with all the pain medication I had in me, I don’t know. I woke up from it a little while ago and the only discomfort I have right now is a slight tension headache.

I just had a rough morning because I couldn’t drink any coffee this morning or even water and that sucked. I’m doing okay today which is surprising. Yesterday I was subpoenaed to court for my nephew’s divorce hearing which the only thing that happened was the judge wants them to go to mediation first to see if they can agree on custody of the children. She has not been a parent to these kids since they were in diapers and only comes to see them when it is convenient and now she wants full custody.

Anyway, things can ease down now a little and I can finish writing my next two books which is the goal right now and doing some marketing for the first three books that have been published. I know it will take some time for sales to jump up there but I have patience and I know it will come. I have a list of places that I can market them and I will probably get that started tomorrow and getting them up everywhere. I love my passion for writing and telling my stories.

It is now time for me to move to the next thing on my schedule for today and I will definitely be here tomorrow to keep everyone updated on my progress and to let everyone know how I am doing mentally and physically. Isn’t it nice to have someone put their everyday problems and achievements out there publicly to let you know that there are other people out there that can relate and for you to get to personally know them? I consider you all my friends and family even the new people who get to know me and I appreciate everyone of you.

So let me say good evening to everyone and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and for everyone else I wish the very best evening for you. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/29/2017

“Happy Hump Day to everyone!” How are my friends and family doing today? I feel awesome today! I am alive and breathing. I woke up this morning with goals on my mind and a to-do list that I really haven’t started yet, lol. I had to run an errand to the doctor’s office and have been sitting here checking emails, updating files, and getting things ready for writing and editing.

My husband has been stuck in front of the television since he got up playing video games but that is what he does. It gives me my time to work on to-do lists and writing uninterrupted. I love him to death but sometimes his game playing gets on my nerves because he has tunnel vision and doesn’t want to do anything else.

We took our dogs to the vet around the corner for their booster and rabies shots which they weren’t too crazy about, but they lived. It hurt me to hear them scream in the next room while getting their shots. Then they came running back to me for security and comfort, lol. They are such big babies with big barks.

I am halfway through the last edit of “The Battle for Joshua” and then off to the editor. I am still writing my next book and love falling into the story as I write. It is a vampire series but not a romantic one that has been around. It is a story of love and tragedy, but in the end, it is of royalty and reign.

Anyway, I am having a great day and I hope that my evening is the same. For all of you with birthdays today, “Happy Birthday” to everyone else, be blessed with an awesome evening. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/25/2017

Good Morning everyone. How are we doing this morning?  I woke up feeling pretty good this morning and have been doing things around the house and I have made my to-do list for the day. Everyone is having coffee together and watching one of the nieces play the PS4. It has been a pretty good morning so far and I look forward to the rest of the day.

My writing is progressing nicely and I am still on schedule towards my goals for publishing. I spent a few hours last night editing the next chapter of “The Battle for Joshua” and it will be the freebie for my mailing list. I will be writing the fourth chapter to my next book today which is part of my goal because I have a plan to write a chapter every day.

As far as my long distance goal is concerned, I have enough books to write until December of next year. It will be a couple of books per month which will build my list of published books. I want to be a career writer which is my main goal.

My husband and I are looking into buying some property in another state which will be better for us in the long run. We are tired of renting and always having the threat of being evicted and having slumlords who don’t want to fix anything but want their rent money.

We are looking to have something we own and enough space for what we need to be comfortable. We will be homesteading while we build our dream house. It will be a fresh start for us and we have been needing this for a while. We are very excited about this and are making our plans to get started.

Well, I hope everyone is having an awesome Saturday morning and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have a good and relaxing day and enjoy your family time this weekend. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/24/2017

Good morning all of my friends and family old and new. I do apologize for not posting yesterday but after doing the housework and then raking the yard, I guess I was so exhausted that I fell asleep about nine thirty last night. It is a few minutes before eight this morning and woke to frost on the ground and it is very cold.

I was up a few times last night and taking my dogs outside about four o’clock this morning in a pair of shorts because it was so warm in my room. It is thirty degrees outside right now and I don’t look forward to the next time they have to go out unless I can talk my husband into doing it, ;).

I am still a little fatigued this morning and trying to shake it off. I want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving Day even though I missed it yesterday. I had finally gotten my new short story, “Rachel’s Deadly Past” published on the site under the crime drama thriller page. Please feel free to read it and would like any comments and feedback.

Well, it is time to get the day started and I wish everyone a Happy Friday and enjoy the rest of your weekend. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/22/2017

Hello everyone that is not traveling a long distance today to be with family. Those of you that are traveling, you will be in my prayers for a safe travel and return. Well, today I would be prepping for Thanksgiving dinner but this will the second year in a row that I am not cooking due to no money to purchase any food for dinner.

Tomorrow, my husband, sister-in-law, and I will be spending a quiet day and evening at home with each other. Usually, I am the one cooking and I cook a very large meal, but with finances being the way they are, we cannot do it this year. We probably won’t be celebrating Christmas either because of funds being low. It is okay though, we don’t need money to celebrate holidays.

I began writing some more on my short story which is over three thousand words right now and I still have quite a bit more to write. I will be leaving shortly to go to therapy and he would like to see samples of my writing which makes me feel good. I love writing so much that I go through withdrawals when I am not able to write. My husband thinks I’m crazy but my writing is my escape like his video games are his escape.

Anyway, I will keep this short and sweet today but I will be posting again tomorrow. Everyone whose birthday is today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else be safe while traveling and have an awesome evening. Take Care.

Daily Journal 11/17/2017

Morning dear friends and family. How are we doing this morning? I woke up feeling pretty good and I know it is because they increased the dosage in some of my medications plus gave me a new one to keep the nightmares away. Thank you so much doctor for that because that is the main reason why I haven’t been sleeping much and beating my husband up while I sleep and he thanks you for that, lol.

It is another beautiful day here in Dalton, Georgia with the sun shining and hardly any breeze but there is a mild chill in the air. It was decent enough to take my dogs out and hang outside for a while. I came back in and made the bed and cleaned up around the house and now I am ready to get to work.

I sat here last night and got another chapter edited and will be back to writing on the new book today. I am so excited to get back to writing that it isn’t even funny. I have been going through withdrawals not being able to write. Now that things are pretty much calmed down I can take care of business. It has been a slow progress with all the drama that has been going on but now it is over and a nice quiet place to sit and work on my writing.

I’m hoping to have two books ready for the first of the month to publish and get out into the world and a few more in December ready for the first of the year. I am looking for people who would like to read an early copy and only asking for those people to leave a review on the Amazon website. If interested please send me a message with your email address and I will put you on the list to receive a copy once they are edited and before their launch.

Well, it is time to stop here and get to work. I have a short story to write and post on the site and I wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome Friday. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/12/2017

Hello to all my family and friends. It has been one exhausting weekend. First, there was the house cleaning for the weekend plus laundry, then our nephew and his three kids moved next door, and then trying to get our room cleaned and my desk set up and organized. There was no relaxation during the weekend.

My nephews soon to be ex-wife, who is under investigation for sexual child abuse and endangerment actually sent children services to take her children away from their father and put into states care. She is just so ignorant. She is not even stable herself so I guess she expects the state to take care of her children.

That has been the drama for the weekend. Once they didn’t take the children, she was trying to have my husband arrested for something he didn’t do. I honestly don’t know where her mind is. Then, she finally tells her husband, my nephew the truth that she is unsure who the father is of all three children. She has done nothing but hurt him and the children are suffering because of it.

On to other things, I have now figured out how to get my writing done and will be implementing it tomorrow. I have been doing some editing still on “The Battle for Joshua” and a little writing here and there on my next book. It seems to be my coping mechanism where I can get away from this world and go to a world I create for relaxation.

It has been such a pleasure writing my stories that I have found a happy place for me to be. My family has loved reading my short stories and the first two books that I have published but I want the whole world to read my books and enjoy my stories. I plan to have at least another two to four books published by the end of the year.

I am currently looking for beta readers who would like a copy of my book to read in exchange for a review written on Amazon. I think everyone especially women should read my first book titled “How I Survived: Prostitution”. It is written based on true events and would give women an insight as to the life a woman must live on the streets.

Well, for now, I must end this here even though I love talking to my readers and connecting but there are things I must get done. I wish everyone with a birthday “Happy Birthday” and for everyone else to have an awesome night. Take care.

Daily Journal 10/28/2017

Good Saturday morning to all my friends and family, old and new. I have been up since four-thirty this morning and feel pretty good. I have been going to sleep early every night which is not like me but it has felt pretty good to go to bed and actually be able to sleep. I did some house chores yesterday and only have a few things left to do today before sitting down to actually get some writing done.

My husband just got up and is having coffee with me while I am writing this post. I love the fact that when I get up this early it is nice and quiet and I can gather my thoughts before having distractions to interrupt me. Writing is the first thing I think about when getting up in the morning.

I have to make a few changes to my writing schedule as far as my book goals are concerned because I fell a couple weeks behind due to living situations and drama that is no longer here. We can now be stress and drama free and it will make for a happy home. I have a few doctor appointments the first three days of the week but with my schedule, it should not interfere with my writing and editing.

I am still editing “The Battle for Joshua”, but I am writing my next book which the first three chapters are done of a fourteen chapter book. I am excited about getting “Joshua” published but more anxious about finishing the next book which will be a series.

It is time for me to get to work and my second cup of coffee, so I wish a very enjoyable Saturday for everyone. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today. Take care.