Daily Journal 10/7/2017

Good morning everyone. Happy Saturday! I hope everyone didn’t party too much last night? I went to bed early last night on account of not feeling good mentally and got up early this morning and cleaned the house and I am not sitting here after two cups of coffee drinking a diet soda and getting my daily stuff done.

Everyone is still asleep and it is quiet around here being eight o’clock in the morning. I made my enchilada’s last night for dinner with a small bowl of ice cream for dessert before going to sleep in my husband’s arms. Even the dogs are still in bed with daddy.

I am looking forward to a beautiful day that is overcast right now but it could be raining outside and I would still call it beautiful because the rain washes the air clean of pollutants. I was not able to stick to my goal last night due to mental issues but will be getting them done this morning.

I also need to get some marketing done for my two books that are already published on Amazon so I can see more book sales. I have started chapter three of the new book and it looks promising as far as my friends say because I have given them the first two chapters to read and give me some feedback.

This is the best time for me to write when everyone is still asleep because it is quiet with no distractions except the washing machine since I have many loads of laundry to do today because Saturday is when all rugs and bedding get washed and changed.

I know this is a holiday weekend for most of you and I hope you enjoy it to the fullest. It is time for me to get to work before everyone gets up and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else I wish for you to have an awesome Saturday and weekend and may your dreams and aspirations come true for you. Take care.

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Daily Journal 9/26/2017

Hello, everyone. Good evening friends and family old and new. It has been a day full of trials here at home and being sick does not help any. I have been sick since about Thursday evening and still dealing with the symptoms which have taken a toll on me today. I have already spoken to my husband and sister-in-law about precautions I am going to have to take since no one else in this house cares about my health.

The five children in this house have been passing upper respiratory infections back and forth because no one wants to wash their hands even after using the bathroom and do not cover their mouths when coughing or sneezing so I will be getting my own utensils, plate, bowl, and cup to keep sterile in my room.

Being diabetic and with a weak immune system, I am susceptible to getting pneumonia or worse and I will not allow these things to happen. My husband, sister-in-law, and I have agreed to go back to eating healthy since the others in the house love fried, greasy, and fatty foods which would do more harm to my health. So the bad foods stop here.

I finally have a good primary care doctor appointment set up for Monday to get my health back together. I have been dealing with hypoglycemia here lately to where the symptoms have been a little worse with each time. I need better diabetes management and better health care than I was getting from the health department. I made the effort and found someone I could trust with my health.

Now, on to my writing, it has been hard with me being sick and in bed, but I have managed to get the first one-thousand words of the second chapter of the new book written and should be writing some more this evening. I am trying to keep my spirits up so that I can enjoy writing again without all the distractions going on in this house but am hopeful that it will get better.

My husband just made me a snack because I have maybe eaten twice in the past four days due to having no appetite. So, I will say good night here and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have an awesome night. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 9/22/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family, old and new. I haven’t been here for a couple days due to my sugar dropping really low and my husband making me stay down because I have hit dangerously low levels. I love him so much because he really takes care of me.

This morning, my sister-in-law was having a bad emotional morning and crying because things just don’t seem to be going right this month. She was talking about giving up and disappearing from the world until my husband and I sat and talked with her for a bit while having coffee. Things have been going rough I’ll admit but we have been trying to stay positive.

As far as my writing is concerned, I have been working on the first round of editing to my Joshua manuscript plus I have finished the first chapter of a new book. I have been working so hard and the first chapter is approximately five thousand words. I expect this book to be a full-length novel and writing it with all my heart. The downside I think is because I write every detail pretty much because I want the reader to experience it as they read.

I am functioning this morning on only a couple hours of sleep because my medications didn’t kick in last night, so I had to force myself to lay down at five o’clock this morning. I feel pretty good this morning even with only a few hours of sleep. I feel a bit fatigued but other than that, things are okay. My sugar wasn’t that high this morning and my husband gave me my insulin.

I am sticking to my schedule today and will be writing a short story on my blog here in a few minutes so I better get ready so I will say goodbye for now and wish everyone a happy Friday. To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday!” Take care.

Daily Journal 7/15/2017

Hello everyone! How are you today? I am doing pretty good today. I cleaned the whole house, took the animals outside to potty, and laid out meat for dinner. Now I am ready to sit down and spend some time writing and catching up on some things like being here with my friends and family and telling you how my day went or is going so far.

I sat down last night and wrote another chapter in my book which was a good thing. I have had no motivation lately and have really been hurting a lot. Last night was hard to sleep because my body ached and I kept having something like electrical shocks coursing through my body. I know that it is my peripheral neuropathy but I haven’t stayed consistent with taking the pain medication so I feel everything all day.

My husband graduated from his class Thursday night and the last thing is for him to be released from probation on the twenty sixth of this month so it is almost here. We have a vacation planned for October to get away and have some fun so we are anticipating that as well.

Everything is going pretty good today and I am still on my writing schedule and look forward to publishing the next book and getting it out to all of you readers out there. It is now time to get back to my writing and I will talk again soon. Everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else, have a great day! 🙂

Daily Journal 7/11/2017

Hello, everyone! How are we doing today? It is such a beautiful day outside and my mental health status is doing pretty good today. Physically, my body aches a little but not enough to make me stay in bed all day being unproductive. My husband got up today and actually swept and mopped the floors for me. We are waiting for one of his friends to come help him with the transmission to our truck so that we can get it running.

I have gotten my to-do lists created and ready and I feel pretty good about it. Things have calmed down since the roommate left. I feel less stressed and my husband has been better as well. We are meeting with his case worker today to find out about our housing voucher for a place of our own. They will help us pay the rent for a year so that we can get stable financially.

I feel good about our future and making a living as a writer. Realistically, my goal has changed and will be that I should have at least thirteen books published this year. We will see, but for now, my hopes are upwards of that. I have plenty of time to write and find solace in my writing.

Well, I just got some bad news, our roommate is coming back and I instantly felt my stress level rise to becoming overwhelming. I spent a whole week getting this house cleaned from cat spray and dog urine to know she is coming back to make the house nasty again within the first week of her being here.

I have already agreed and stated to myself that I am not going to cater to her and that my goals and deadlines are more important than her. My husband will probably stay in his man cave quite a bit just to stay out of the conflict. She is going to be mad as hell because I will be refusing her, but I don’t care anymore. I need to live for me and my husband and our kids.

Sorry, I am venting some of this stress right now. I love all of my friends and family on here because you are all good listeners. I don’t know when she will be here, but I will definitely let you all know because I will need to vent again, lol.

Time for me to get some writing done but to everyone with a birthday, and you know who you are, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, I wish for you an awesomely blessed day. Take care.

Daily Journal 6/20/2017

Hello, everyone. It is such a gorgeous day outside and I feel awesome today. I got up this morning, had coffee with my husband, then cleaned the house and finished the laundry. Now, I am here with my favorite people which are you, my readers. I love sharing my life, whether good or bad, with you all. I want you to get to know me and see that I am a real person with real life issues that happen every single day.

I have had a really hard life full of liars, thieves, cheats, and drugs. I kicked a drug addiction back in two-thousand and eight, have done some minor jail time, and even formed a nonprofit that assists the homeless and needy families. I took everything bad and wrong in my life and made something positive from it.

I suffer from mental health issues that keep me from going a lot of places where there are groups of people. I suffer from depression which causes suicidal or self-harm tendencies, severe anxiety and social anxiety disorder, plus PTSD.

All my life people told me that I should write a book about my life to help others and back then, I would just brush off the thought until last year. I was dealing with a lot of stress and depression and finally sat down and began writing out a plan to write my story in hopes that it would help other people.

When I started writing my first book I found that I had a place I could disappear to. Of course, it made me remember things that I really didn’t want to remember but it did some good to get it out of my head. I isolate a lot of the times and writing gives me an outlet. Granted, my story is nonfiction, but I am working on some fiction which gives me a place to live in my mind.

So, things are getting better for me and my life and I look forward to having people read my books. I just thought maybe you should know the real me and where I came from and where I am going is anyone’s guess. I live a simple life and even use coupons when shopping. I love the outdoors like fishing, camping, and gardening. I shop at Walmart in the middle of the night because of my social anxiety disorder.

You are my only friends and family and that’s enough for me. I appreciate everyone who reads my stories and journal entries and I hope that we get to know each other better. I look forward to it. 🙂

In conclusion, everyone who has a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have a great and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/17/2017

Hello, friends and family. How is everyone today? I woke up pretty good today and looking forward to a day full of writing. My husband left with family members to go work on one of their cars, so that leaves me with peace and quiet to write. Granted, I am doing laundry, but still able to write. I was up until four o’clock this morning working on some printing of forms I got passed to me to help me with time management and work efficiency. They are a great help right now with all of the issues I am facing.

I have finally made the decision to tighten up and keep pushing forward because I am faced with people around me who do not want to see me succeed and will do whatever they can to stop me from completing my tasks and my writing. I know what I am capable of doing and can be successful if given the chance but my roommate knows how to play games and is such a drama queen. She tries to take my attention away from my writing and my husband has agreed to keep her away from me when I am writing.

I have my game plan and strategy to get my books done and I need to put them into action. I appreciate all the support and love I receive from all my readers who are my friends and family. I hope to gain more because I know you can never have too many friends and family, lol.

Now it is time for me to get back to my writing and hope to hear from all of you soon. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and I wish everyone an awesome and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/13/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family old and new. I love to see new followers every day and I appreciate everyone equally and feel like you are all part of my family. You are those who will listen to my ramblings when no one physically here with me understands. I can go into crisis mode and once I begin talking to you all here and telling you of my issues I start to feel better and it feels like you really are listening.

Anyway, today I am going back in writing mode and to hell with everything else around me. I am tired of being the maid, secretary, and dog groomer. It is time for me to do me now. Everything going on here makes me feel like the servant and slave and it stops here and now. People who are able to need to do things for themselves and let me do what I need to do for me. If something happens to me what will they do without me?

I am writing chapter seven of my second book today with a goal to have chapter seven, eight, and part of nine done today. I found out the other night that with my headphones playing music in my ears I get more writing done, so I have them on now and will be getting things done today. I look forward to finishing the manuscript and begin the editing phase. As part of my editing, I will record the reading of my manuscript so that I can hear it and make any corrections as I follow along.

I am going to get some goals done today and who knows that it could be possible to finish my manuscript today but I know that once I fall into the story I get lost and chapters become long ones. Writing is my escape mechanism from everyday drama which is what I try to avoid as much as possible. So, I want to wish everyone who’s birthday is today a very “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else an awesome and blessed day.