Daily Journal 7/15/2017

Hello everyone! How are you today? I am doing pretty good today. I cleaned the whole house, took the animals outside to potty, and laid out meat for dinner. Now I am ready to sit down and spend some time writing and catching up on some things like being here with my friends and family and telling you how my day went or is going so far.

I sat down last night and wrote another chapter in my book which was a good thing. I have had no motivation lately and have really been hurting a lot. Last night was hard to sleep because my body ached and I kept having something like electrical shocks coursing through my body. I know that it is my peripheral neuropathy but I haven’t stayed consistent with taking the pain medication so I feel everything all day.

My husband graduated from his class Thursday night and the last thing is for him to be released from probation on the twenty sixth of this month so it is almost here. We have a vacation planned for October to get away and have some fun so we are anticipating that as well.

Everything is going pretty good today and I am still on my writing schedule and look forward to publishing the next book and getting it out to all of you readers out there. It is now time to get back to my writing and I will talk again soon. Everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else, have a great day! 🙂

Daily Journal 7/11/2017

Hello, everyone! How are we doing today? It is such a beautiful day outside and my mental health status is doing pretty good today. Physically, my body aches a little but not enough to make me stay in bed all day being unproductive. My husband got up today and actually swept and mopped the floors for me. We are waiting for one of his friends to come help him with the transmission to our truck so that we can get it running.

I have gotten my to-do lists created and ready and I feel pretty good about it. Things have calmed down since the roommate left. I feel less stressed and my husband has been better as well. We are meeting with his case worker today to find out about our housing voucher for a place of our own. They will help us pay the rent for a year so that we can get stable financially.

I feel good about our future and making a living as a writer. Realistically, my goal has changed and will be that I should have at least thirteen books published this year. We will see, but for now, my hopes are upwards of that. I have plenty of time to write and find solace in my writing.

Well, I just got some bad news, our roommate is coming back and I instantly felt my stress level rise to becoming overwhelming. I spent a whole week getting this house cleaned from cat spray and dog urine to know she is coming back to make the house nasty again within the first week of her being here.

I have already agreed and stated to myself that I am not going to cater to her and that my goals and deadlines are more important than her. My husband will probably stay in his man cave quite a bit just to stay out of the conflict. She is going to be mad as hell because I will be refusing her, but I don’t care anymore. I need to live for me and my husband and our kids.

Sorry, I am venting some of this stress right now. I love all of my friends and family on here because you are all good listeners. I don’t know when she will be here, but I will definitely let you all know because I will need to vent again, lol.

Time for me to get some writing done but to everyone with a birthday, and you know who you are, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, I wish for you an awesomely blessed day. Take care.

Daily Journal 6/20/2017

Hello, everyone. It is such a gorgeous day outside and I feel awesome today. I got up this morning, had coffee with my husband, then cleaned the house and finished the laundry. Now, I am here with my favorite people which are you, my readers. I love sharing my life, whether good or bad, with you all. I want you to get to know me and see that I am a real person with real life issues that happen every single day.

I have had a really hard life full of liars, thieves, cheats, and drugs. I kicked a drug addiction back in two-thousand and eight, have done some minor jail time, and even formed a nonprofit that assists the homeless and needy families. I took everything bad and wrong in my life and made something positive from it.

I suffer from mental health issues that keep me from going a lot of places where there are groups of people. I suffer from depression which causes suicidal or self-harm tendencies, severe anxiety and social anxiety disorder, plus PTSD.

All my life people told me that I should write a book about my life to help others and back then, I would just brush off the thought until last year. I was dealing with a lot of stress and depression and finally sat down and began writing out a plan to write my story in hopes that it would help other people.

When I started writing my first book I found that I had a place I could disappear to. Of course, it made me remember things that I really didn’t want to remember but it did some good to get it out of my head. I isolate a lot of the times and writing gives me an outlet. Granted, my story is nonfiction, but I am working on some fiction which gives me a place to live in my mind.

So, things are getting better for me and my life and I look forward to having people read my books. I just thought maybe you should know the real me and where I came from and where I am going is anyone’s guess. I live a simple life and even use coupons when shopping. I love the outdoors like fishing, camping, and gardening. I shop at Walmart in the middle of the night because of my social anxiety disorder.

You are my only friends and family and that’s enough for me. I appreciate everyone who reads my stories and journal entries and I hope that we get to know each other better. I look forward to it. 🙂

In conclusion, everyone who has a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have a great and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/17/2017

Hello, friends and family. How is everyone today? I woke up pretty good today and looking forward to a day full of writing. My husband left with family members to go work on one of their cars, so that leaves me with peace and quiet to write. Granted, I am doing laundry, but still able to write. I was up until four o’clock this morning working on some printing of forms I got passed to me to help me with time management and work efficiency. They are a great help right now with all of the issues I am facing.

I have finally made the decision to tighten up and keep pushing forward because I am faced with people around me who do not want to see me succeed and will do whatever they can to stop me from completing my tasks and my writing. I know what I am capable of doing and can be successful if given the chance but my roommate knows how to play games and is such a drama queen. She tries to take my attention away from my writing and my husband has agreed to keep her away from me when I am writing.

I have my game plan and strategy to get my books done and I need to put them into action. I appreciate all the support and love I receive from all my readers who are my friends and family. I hope to gain more because I know you can never have too many friends and family, lol.

Now it is time for me to get back to my writing and hope to hear from all of you soon. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and I wish everyone an awesome and blessed day.

Daily Journal 6/13/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family old and new. I love to see new followers every day and I appreciate everyone equally and feel like you are all part of my family. You are those who will listen to my ramblings when no one physically here with me understands. I can go into crisis mode and once I begin talking to you all here and telling you of my issues I start to feel better and it feels like you really are listening.

Anyway, today I am going back in writing mode and to hell with everything else around me. I am tired of being the maid, secretary, and dog groomer. It is time for me to do me now. Everything going on here makes me feel like the servant and slave and it stops here and now. People who are able to need to do things for themselves and let me do what I need to do for me. If something happens to me what will they do without me?

I am writing chapter seven of my second book today with a goal to have chapter seven, eight, and part of nine done today. I found out the other night that with my headphones playing music in my ears I get more writing done, so I have them on now and will be getting things done today. I look forward to finishing the manuscript and begin the editing phase. As part of my editing, I will record the reading of my manuscript so that I can hear it and make any corrections as I follow along.

I am going to get some goals done today and who knows that it could be possible to finish my manuscript today but I know that once I fall into the story I get lost and chapters become long ones. Writing is my escape mechanism from everyday drama which is what I try to avoid as much as possible. So, I want to wish everyone who’s birthday is today a very “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else an awesome and blessed day.