Daily Journal 4/5/2018

Hello everyone. Sorry I missed yesterday posting on here and got a late start today. I just got out of a doctor’s appointment where a cast was put on my foot because of a diabetic ulcer under my big toe. Now, I am sitting out in front of a chiropractor’s office where my husband is getting checked and adjusted because of a car accident he was in. He was the passenger and the driver thought doing sixty in a thirty-five zone would be beneficial to get to where I was dealing with my sister-in-law having a bad seizure. A car suddenly stopped in front of them and they rear-ended it. He is okay but his neck and back hurt and he cannot help me as much because of it.

After we leave here we are stopping by the dealership to have our car washed and then back home where I can get some writing done. I miss my writing but now things are going back to normal and our friend came home from the hospital today which is great because we missed him. I thought that I would have had my next book ready for the editor at the beginning of this month but things got crazy for a minute dealing with family and now that I have washed my hands of them I am free to get back to living my life.

Today, the plan is to get back into working on it and having it ready before the end of the month. The way things look I might be able to have the two books I have been working on ready for the editor. I can write pretty much a whole five-thousand-word chapter a night when left alone which means that both books should be completed. Also, I have in mind of writing an erotic short story book which wouldn’t take long because I have what I need to get started. I just need to find out where to publish it at since Amazon might not appreciate it being on their site. I will have to check into it.

I do have a few things to do when I first get home like starting some laundry, sweeping and mopping the floors, and thinking about what to cook for dinner. Yes, being with a cast on my leg I still have to do things around the house. It is my punishment because I don’t know how to stay off my feet, lol.

Well, we made it home and was happy to see my friend home from the hospital. My husband is now trying to fix one of the lawnmowers so the grass can be cut. I am sitting out here on the porch writing this post so that I can also spend time with him and the dogs out in the yard.

So, let me get started on my writing while I am just sitting here on my butt with this cast on. I should be able to keep posting every day now with everything calming down and my stress level lowering. I feel pretty good today and actually look forward to tomorrow.

Well, let me get off here and get to writing and I wish everyone an awesome evening. Take care.

 

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Daily Journal 4/3/2018

Today has been such a free feeling for me. I have had nothing but stress and drama for the last few weeks outside of my own household. Today, I have been able to free myself from all that hinders me and my marriage. I am no longer responsible for people who don’t appreciate anything, want to control everything, greed for money and materialistic things, and drama filled lives. It was becoming such a burden on my life and mental health status that lots of bad things were beginning to happen within myself. I have put myself on hold for so long and doing for others, OUTSIDE of where we live, that it now feels like I can shed that old tired skin off and live life the way it was meant for living.

I do not speak for my husband, but I must refrain from associating with his side of the family to keep myself positive and moving forward. They live differently than what I am used to and have different values than my own. It seems that what is pleasing and satisfying to them, makes me feel like I am just stuck in a sphere or frozen state never moving forward and only being content with dullness. It seems that some of them only survive to take what they can get from others, sucking the very essence and life out of everyone around them.

I guess it is true that misery really does love company and they are a perfect example of that. No one can really be happy around them and it is liberating to be free from them and only being able to live and be happy as only I know how. Like I said, I cannot speak for my husband, and I will never keep him from them, but we have a better life ahead of us and God will be leading the way.

Now, on to better notes, I am regaining a piece of me that had hid for a few weeks not knowing when it would be safe to poke it’s head out and enjoy what life has to offer. I am shedding off hinderances and putting back up on the shelves childish things to use what God has given me. It has been a rollercoaster ride for the past few years with lots of family leaving this life and moving on to a better place without pain and sorrow. There are not too many of the elders left and when they are all gone it would be hard because of no one being there to answer my still sought-after questions of life and advice. The world is going to hell in a handbag and I refuse to sit around and let life pass me by.

Today, I begin writing again and exploring fantasy so I can escape from what ails me. Sometimes, it is good to get away and relax on that white sandy beach watching the white-capped waves as they roll in. I have been so distraught over life that I seriously need a break and will find that in my stories. One of my future books will change or be deleted because of family drama. Writing it would bring ill feelings and I don’t want to return to that negative place.

I hope everyone had an awesome Easter with family and friends and I will end this post here and bid everyone a good night. Before I go, I do want to send prayers out to someone I know who is in the hospital right now and for a speedy recovery because he is missed here at home. 🙂

 

Daily Journal 3/16/2018

Good morning to all my friends and family. It is about ten minutes to ten in the morning and the day looks beautiful. I started planting my seeds the other day to start our garden and have been tending to them daily. I can’t wait to see my little seedlings just so that I can begin talking to them.

Sorry I had to stop and go back to bed. I saw my back doctor yesterday and he increased my pain medication which took it all out of me this morning since I hadn’t had medication in a couple of days. That is part of the reason why I haven’t posted as much because of the discomfort and pain that I was having to endure.

When they did the neck procedure on me, it relieved about seventy percent of the pain in my neck but opened it up for me to feel everything going on in my lower back. From the lower back all the way to the bottom of my feet I feel pain and discomfort enough to keep me from concentrating on what needs to be done. It was an awful experience for me. I do not tolerate pain very well.

Anyway, I am doing better today and look forward to catching up on everything. I want to get back to writing my books and seeing them published soon. The goal now is to have two books published next month. I have two works in progress and I am having an awesome time writing them. I have missed writing here and keeping you all up to date on my life and events.

Anyone with a birthday today let me wish you a very “Happy Birthday” and I hope everyone else has a very awesome Friday and “Happy Weekend”. I need to go now and get some things done and completed before the day’s end. Have a great Friday night and will post again soon.

Daily Journal 2/28/2018

Good afternoon all my East Coasters and good morning to all my West Coasters. How is everyone doing today? Happy Hump Day!! Two more days until the weekend and I know everyone is probably waiting with anticipation. I look forward to every morning when I wake up and feel my heart beating and the breath of air in my lungs. Today we go back home and take care of things there and visit with everyone.

I am already feeling the stress of returning and hope we are welcome back with open arms and that the house is not trashed. We have enjoyed our break away and look forward to coming back again. It is very relaxing here and I have been stress-free. We have four of our five dogs here with us and I will be happy to see our other dog who we left at home. It has been a week since we saw her and we have missed her so much.

I am off house cleaning today here because I have kept the house clean while they were gone and now she is doing the house and ordered me to relax while she does the cleaning, so I have time to sit and write. I will be getting some writing done today and yesterday I got some tweets out about my FREE ebook on this site. I have had several people download my book so far and some have enjoyed it very much.

Today, my goal is to get another chapter of one book done and write the first chapter of the second one since I have finished the detailed outline of it. I am happy when I am writing and when I spend time with my loving husband and dogs. That is what makes me truly happy and satisfied.

Since I began writing, I have found that my true passion is writing. It is my real escape from reality and each one of my short stories and books I find that there is a piece of me and my life inside each one even when it is fiction. It is good therapy and very enjoying for me. My husband being a gamer and myself a writer, it gives us space from each other even with us in the same room.

So, it is time for me to end this post and get things ready to go home after I take a shower. I will be here every day posting now that I will be in a stress-free environment and have the time to post and get everything done. So, everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesome day. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 2/26/2018

Good afternoon everyone. How are we doing today? I am feeling pretty good today and looking forward to the rest of my day with some writing. The house is smelling good and clean and some smooth music is playing while I am posting this. I write better when there is nice music playing. It seems to drown out all the noise around me.

It has been raining off and on all morning and I have sat out on the porch for a bit while getting the dogs out. I love the smell in the air after a good rain. So, did everyone have a good weekend? Mine was very relaxing and I took somewhat of a break from writing to clear my head and feel that there is no stress here like there is at home.

I had to go to my site and change the code for the free ebook so now everyone should have no problem downloading it. I have had some people say that they have enjoyed reading it, but it will only be free for a little while longer before going up on Amazon for sale. Please get your copy now while it is free.

Well, my day is full of getting things done with the two books that I am writing because my deadline is getting close to having them sent to the editor. I am excited about being a published author and look ahead to all the other books that I will write. I have a short story that I have to finish for the site so I will end this post here and wish everyone a “Happy Monday” and will post again soon.

Everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have a great and prosperous day. Take care.

Daily Journal 2/24/2018

Hello everyone. I just got finished cleaning the house and now I can sit and relax until dinner time. We are at our friends’ house sitting with their dad and it has been nice. We brought four of our five dogs with us and they get along great with their four small dogs. Our nine-month-old lab has gone into heat so we are just going to have a good old time with her. At least they only have two boys and one is gone with our friend and the other one here is too small to reach anything.

It has been nice being here and their dad is good people and we have awesome conversations. I have been able to sit and relax and now since everything is done I can work on my writing. It has been great weather here for being February. I call it a heat wave with our temperatures in the upper seventies and eighties.

I will be starting to write the second book that I finished the detailed outline on the other night so that will be two works in progress that I hope to publish soon. I have been doing some marketing and have had two of my book read in the Kindle lending library and a few downloads of my free book, “The Battle for Joshua”. I am having a great time writing and I know it will take patience before sales really start picking up more.

Well, I have a short story to finish and post on the site and wish everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else an awesome weekend. Take care.

 

Daily Journal 2/19/2018

Good morning everyone. It is almost seven o’clock in the morning here and a little chilly outside with cloudy skies. One of my older dogs woke me up because they had to go out and I figured I might as well stay up and make the coffee. My husband and I went to bed about three o’clock this morning so I have only had about three hours of sleep and I have a doctor’s appointment at one o’clock today. I will be taking a nap and then a shower before going.

I have had a lot on my mind lately and still dealing with my bowel problem. There has been a little drama here at home but nothing I can’t deal with. I have tried putting my mind back into my writing to escape from everything. I have two works in progress where I have five chapters written in one book and just finished the detailed and organized outline of my other book.

The audiobook of The Battle for Joshua should be completed by the end of the month and I am excited about getting it up on Amazon also. My goal and plan are to have both of my works in progress ready for the editor around the first of the month. I am proud of the three books I have published already and have high expectations for them.

Well, I need to get some other things done and wish everyone a “Happy Monday”. To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have an awesome and prosperous day. Take care.

Daily Journal 2/15/2018

I truly apologize for not posting since January 31st. There have been a lot of things going on with my health which has caused a lot of turmoil. I was scheduled to see my psychiatrist for my next refills of medication but we had some freak snow storms coming through which Dalton panics and everything shuts down. So, I never made it to my doctor and ran out of medication for ten days which caused some serious withdrawals which concerned my husband enough to make me housebound and even he called the pharmacy asking them to get ahold of my doctor for refills.

They finally got ahold of the doctor and refilled my medications so I am back on my mental health medication. Then, I went to see my primary care doctor and I have a diabetic ulcer on the bottom of my big toe which I now have to wear a walking boot until my appointment with wound care on Monday. I also have a major infection in the same foot which the doctor has me on a strong antibiotic for the infection.

On top of everything else, Now I am having bowel issues. I fill like I have to go only to sit in pain on the toilet as my body has contractions making me push when there is nothing there to push out. Having this issue for the past few days, I ended up prolapsing my anus which I had to take a hot bath and push it back in. I have been having severe abdominal cramps which has made me want to sleep so that my bowels can rest and I can be pain-free for a few hours. I have been walking gently while holding my lower abdomen so that it is not jarred. I have actually been miserable for the past few days.

Things here at home have been a little out of sorts. My husband and I are good and have been spending time with each other, but the relationship between his sister and I has been awkward. I have no clue as to what is going on but the closeness that we used to share is not there anymore. It feels like we are miles apart and all she does is stay in her room. I understand that I stay in my room a lot but I am being productive with my writing and getting things done. It seems we are drifting apart and losing the closeness we used to share.

Now you see that I am as normal as anyone else and have issues like any normal human being. I am always looking to make my relationship with my readers more personal so that you can get to know me better. I am no better than anyone else and I hope through my postings I have proved that.

Well, now that I feel a little better and have some energy I am going to get back to working on some things to keep moving forward. I hope everyone had a perfect and special Valentine’s Day and will talk again soon. Take care.

Daily Journal 1/31/2018

Hello everyone. How are you doing today? Happy Hump Day! The weekend is coming closer for all those who don’t work weekends. This morning I had the procedure on my neck and it went very well. I thought I would panic with them putting injections in my cervical spine but I felt hardly anything. It could have been with all the pain medication I had in me, I don’t know. I woke up from it a little while ago and the only discomfort I have right now is a slight tension headache.

I just had a rough morning because I couldn’t drink any coffee this morning or even water and that sucked. I’m doing okay today which is surprising. Yesterday I was subpoenaed to court for my nephew’s divorce hearing which the only thing that happened was the judge wants them to go to mediation first to see if they can agree on custody of the children. She has not been a parent to these kids since they were in diapers and only comes to see them when it is convenient and now she wants full custody.

Anyway, things can ease down now a little and I can finish writing my next two books which is the goal right now and doing some marketing for the first three books that have been published. I know it will take some time for sales to jump up there but I have patience and I know it will come. I have a list of places that I can market them and I will probably get that started tomorrow and getting them up everywhere. I love my passion for writing and telling my stories.

It is now time for me to move to the next thing on my schedule for today and I will definitely be here tomorrow to keep everyone updated on my progress and to let everyone know how I am doing mentally and physically. Isn’t it nice to have someone put their everyday problems and achievements out there publicly to let you know that there are other people out there that can relate and for you to get to personally know them? I consider you all my friends and family even the new people who get to know me and I appreciate everyone of you.

So let me say good evening to everyone and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and for everyone else I wish the very best evening for you. Take care.

Daily Journal 1/29/2018

It’s a quarter to midnight here and I am about to play some games to wind down for bed. It has been a grueling day for me with so much going on. I got up this morning, had one cup of coffee, and then had to clean house since it isn’t going to clean itself.

There are three grown adults in this house but I seem to be the only one who cares what the house looks and smells like. Everyone curses the roaches but doesn’t seem to help me get rid of them and keep them away.

I have cleaned my room and the dogs’ room every day and took a break from cleaning the kitchen to see if anyone else would clean it? It sat with almost every dish dirty in the sink and on the counter, but no one seems to care.

To me, a filthy house is chaos. It drives me crazy. I guess that is part of my OCD. Everything has to be clean and organized before I can even sit and relax. So today I started cleaning the kitchen but was not happy about it and I made it clear to everyone in the house.

I seem to be everyone’s maid, cook, and secretary. No one can seem to help or do stuff for themselves and I can’t wait to see my therapist in the morning so I can vent to him, lol. Tomorrow is my nephews’ divorce court hearing and I had to print up the divorce packet, fill it out, and then drag him down to the courthouse to file it.

I understand that he has mental issues but this is the third time I have filed this paperwork for him because his wife manipulates him. She threatens to take his kids who he has custody of unless he cancels the divorce hearing and so he does.

Everyone relies on me too much to do things for them and I have to figure out a way to break the cycle. If I take a break from cleaning, the house will get filthier and then it will just drive me crazy and I can’t function enough to write or do anything else for that matter.

It’s like I try to concentrate on writing, but the house has to be clean and smelling good for me to relax enough to get the creative juices flowing. So I get up and do everything just so I can sit and focus. Everyone gets on to me because I sit locked away in my room writing and working on things for my book like advertising, blogging, and tweeting.

I love being alone in that sense and don’t care if I ever go outside as long as there are books to write. There are not enough hours in a day for me to get everything done. Right now everyone is asleep and I enjoy the peace and quiet to be able to write.

Sometimes I get up early in the morning and get the coffee going and dogs out so that I can get some writing done before the chaos and drama wakes up around here. I will figure something out soon. I just have to have some faith. So I want to say goodnight to everyone and “Happy Birthday” to everyone who had a birthday today. I wish you many more. Take care everyone.