Daily Journal 10/15/2017

Good evening, everyone. So sorry for it being so late but was doing some fall cleaning which needed to be done seriously. It has been an exhausting day with all the cleaning and what not but my mood is okay today.

I have been out of my fast acting insulin for a few days now and only surviving on the long-acting which has been doing good keeping my sugar down. I have been watching what I eat so that there are no sugar spikes. I will be going to a convenient care clinic tomorrow to get a prescription for fast-acting insulin because my next primary care doctor appointment isn’t until October thirtieth.

I felt good enough to cook dinner today which was roast with potatoes, carrots, and some onions. It came out so delicious and everyone liked it. I have not cooked a good meal like that in a very long time and told my sister-in-law that we need to go back to having good dinners on Sunday which used to be one of my traditions.

As for my writing, I am working on the second round of editing for “The Battle for Joshua” and have plans to send to the editor around the end of the month. I have begun the fourth chapter of my next book which is the first in a vampire series and I look to reading it when done.

My sleep has been broken again and then I got a call that I cant see my mental health doctor or therapist at this one clinic because of my Medicare insurance. So tomorrow I will be calling another place and seeing what they have to offer. I have seen this doctor before and she prescribed me medication that actually didn’t work for me so I am curious as to what she will give me now?

I am finally winding down being sick and now my husband is sick and not feeling well at all. He brags that he doesn’t get sick but sure enough, he was wrong and has what every other person in this house has and that is an upper respiratory infection with bronchitis. I am finally getting over mine and loving every minute of it because I hate being sick.

I should be able to get back on schedule tomorrow now that I feel better but we will see. I hope everyone had a great weekend and look forward to going back to work tomorrow? To everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else I wish you to have a quiet relaxing night. Take care.

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Daily Journal 9/10/2017

Hello, everyone. Sorry to have disappeared for a few days. I have been dealing with some health issues that we haven’t quite figured out what is going on yet. I have been so tired and feeling so fatigued that all I do is want to sleep. I have no energy for anything and it frustrates me because I don’t know what is causing it. It has been going on for a couple weeks now but I will be seeing my therapist on Wednesday to see if she might have any ideas.

I actually sat here yesterday forcing myself to stay up and created my book writing monthly goal sheet. With everything from writing the chapters to three rounds of editing to sending it off to a professional editor, I will be writing my current list of books well into February two- thousand and nineteen. Not considering any other books I come up with between now and then, lol. I have a few ideas for some more but I have jotted them down just until I get my already extensive list of books down some. I plan to stay busy and creative.

As far as how my day is going, it is manageable. Yesterday my nephew’s girlfriend celebrated one of her son’s birthdays with a party to which I pretty much stayed in my room. I have been feeling somewhat isolated the last week or so and don’t care to be bothered with anyone else. I put on that happy face for everyone in the house but my husband and sister-in-law know that I am not being real and hiding what is going on on the inside. I am a person who holds everything in until I find a safe way to release it. I call it throwing up to my therapist, lol.

I know that I am getting older because of the way my body aches and hurts but I try to stay young at heart. Walking is difficult at times because my feet haven’t been cooperating with me lately, or hurting so much that I can’t walk. My husband tries to get me up and walking throughout the day but it hurts so bad. I remember back in two- thousand and ten when I walked from Orlando, Florida to the border of Texas for a charity walk for the homeless and here I can barely walk about thirty feet without hurting or stopping to rest.

I need to find a way to motivate myself and to keep myself up during the day but cannot figure out what to do. I have no problem sitting up at night and I have stayed up until three or four o’clock in the morning without even being tired. Those are days when I would get up in the morning and stay up all day too. I don’t know but I will be seeing my primary care physician on the twenty- sixth of this month if it is not mental health being the culprit.

Well, I will stop here so that I can make use of my up time and finish the last chapter of my book “The Battle for Joshua”. I will begin the first round of editing tomorrow and look forward to sending it off to the editor. So, to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday”, and to everyone else have an awesome Sunday. Take care.

Daily Journal 7/21/2017

Good evening, everyone! Happy Friday!! I slept in a little today which is great for me and have gotten quite a bit of my daily schedule done. My husband is off with our roommates running some errands so I am here with the animals with some peace and quiet. I finally finished chapter ten last night of Joshua and will be doing chapter eleven today. It is coming along nicely and it should be launching by August fifth, that is the goal anyway.

My plans for this weekend are pretty much the same as every weekend, writing my book. I like writing and it is a coping mechanism for my mental health. I just took the dogs out for some outdoor time and the puppies found a branch they wanted to play with so I brought it inside since they are teething they have something they can chew on but it will take them awhile to even break some of it up.

Today I feel pretty good and I seem to be happy so far since being back on meds and the doctor making the dosages higher. Now if I can just get my husband to clean up his man cave we will be good. We are still up in the air about moving to a place of our own since the old roommate keeps saying she is moving back in since the house is still in her name which we were going to let the landlord know she moved out and if he would rent the house to us so we could stop her from moving back in.

We are going to try and stay here for another month until this one trailer opens up September first and then we could move there and have plenty of space for the dogs to run and play. My main concern is having a large enough yard for them to run and have fun. These are my kids and I want to provide for them.

Well, it is time to get writing and I look forward to seeing some feedback on all of my writing and hope everyone has a wonderful evening. “Happy Birthday” to everyone who has a birthday today and may you have many more. Take care and God Bless.

Daily Journal 7/11/2017

Hello, everyone! How are we doing today? It is such a beautiful day outside and my mental health status is doing pretty good today. Physically, my body aches a little but not enough to make me stay in bed all day being unproductive. My husband got up today and actually swept and mopped the floors for me. We are waiting for one of his friends to come help him with the transmission to our truck so that we can get it running.

I have gotten my to-do lists created and ready and I feel pretty good about it. Things have calmed down since the roommate left. I feel less stressed and my husband has been better as well. We are meeting with his case worker today to find out about our housing voucher for a place of our own. They will help us pay the rent for a year so that we can get stable financially.

I feel good about our future and making a living as a writer. Realistically, my goal has changed and will be that I should have at least thirteen books published this year. We will see, but for now, my hopes are upwards of that. I have plenty of time to write and find solace in my writing.

Well, I just got some bad news, our roommate is coming back and I instantly felt my stress level rise to becoming overwhelming. I spent a whole week getting this house cleaned from cat spray and dog urine to know she is coming back to make the house nasty again within the first week of her being here.

I have already agreed and stated to myself that I am not going to cater to her and that my goals and deadlines are more important than her. My husband will probably stay in his man cave quite a bit just to stay out of the conflict. She is going to be mad as hell because I will be refusing her, but I don’t care anymore. I need to live for me and my husband and our kids.

Sorry, I am venting some of this stress right now. I love all of my friends and family on here because you are all good listeners. I don’t know when she will be here, but I will definitely let you all know because I will need to vent again, lol.

Time for me to get some writing done but to everyone with a birthday, and you know who you are, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, I wish for you an awesomely blessed day. Take care.