Daily Journal 5/25/2017

Good morning everyone! It is a cool Thursday morning here in Dalton, Georgia and an awesome day for writing. I want to thank everyone who has been following me and those who have just begun following me on Twitter. I really appreciate your support and to those on Facebook, you are very appreciated as well. I love writing my stories and have just finished another chapter in my second book which is fictional and I have a deadline of May 31st to have the first draft completed and ready for editing.

On Monday, I was supposed to have a procedure done on my neck for pain management but due to my sugar being in the 300’s they recommended that I reschedule for June 12th. I have been working on trying to control my diabetes and I have made some progress but continue to be positive.

I am almost back on my regular schedule now for writing and have found that I drift off into my stories and live them as I write. I have my calendar set up with deadlines and goals to have all my book outlines turned into written books and it is pretty easy to follow. Since its publishing back in April, I have sold twelve books and look forward to there being more in the coming months.

As far as my health and mental status are concerned, my writing is my outlet to disappear from all the stress and drama that surrounds me. It makes me feel better to write and be inside of my stories like I am right there in the action. I am maintaining six other blog sites for short stories each with their own theme or genre, so it seems I am always writing which is a good thing. It keeps me out of my husband’s hair as he puts it and he knows that it helps me with my stress and anxiety, so he supports me with my writing and has even helped me with some plots and outlines.

Well, I must get back to work and just wanted to give you an update on how I am doing thus far. Again, thank you for all your support and to those who purchase a copy of my book, if you could be so kind as to leave a review on the site where you found it I would really appreciate it. I wish everyone an awesome day and a blessed one.

Daily Journal 5/6/2017

Hello, Everyone!! It is so good to be back. I finally got my internet installed here at my cousin’s house and now I can go back to writing to all of you wonderful people who encourage me to share my stories. I would have written yesterday which was my plan but I ended up having a very bad and stressful day that caused me to isolate from everyone.

Then, to top it all off, I went down to code enforcement to get the permit for the electrical only to find myself opening a pandora’s box of other issues and now it looks like we will have to undo all of our hard work from this house and try to salvage what we can and at least get part of the money back. So, we are stuck here at my cousin’s house until we can find a place to live.

My cousin wants us to stay here but she is bipolar and that doesn’t mix well with our mental health issues, so this is only temporary. Every day is a new drama scenario which makes it very difficult to write or even keep a clear mind for creativity.

Today seems to be a better day and now I am able to sit and write. I am working on three books at the same time, writing a half of a chapter to a whole chapter almost every day. so they should all be ready for publishing at the same time. I have plenty of books to write this year and look forward to each story and being a part of that world. It will be a nice escape for me and I am seriously considering a writer’s retreat to get away and be to myself and my writing.

Well, I have some short stories to post and look forward to another day of writing. I wish everyone old and new a beautiful and blessed day. Don’t forget to give a smile to someone to brighten their day. Be blessed.

Daily Journal 4/5/2017

Good morning to all my friends and family. I just woke up to a nice thunderstorm outside. I went to bed about four o’clock this morning because I wasn’t tired and was sitting here working on outlines for my books. I am setting them up so when it is time to write a specific book I already have the outline done. I am waiting for coffee to brew and I have a bit of a sore throat but other than that I feel pretty good and ready to write.

Writing is my coping mechanism for stress and depression. It is very relaxing to me and I seem to think better. I find that my best time to write is in the morning even though I write all day long and work on my drafts to manuscripts. I am on schedule with my goals and very excited as June gets here to publish at least three books.

My husband had to fix a few leaks in the tent this morning so that we don’t get flooded so we will see what happens. He is sitting here playing his video games and had to go to a church this morning to get food and brought me some snacks. The thunder outside is getting pretty loud but I love thunderstorms. Ahh, my coffee is done and it tastes so good.

My mental status is pretty good this morning but like I said before, the day isn’t over with yet. We are not going to the house until the weekend to continue working on it. It won’t be until May that we can get it inspected and for me to have the money for the utility deposit which means some of the bills are not going to get paid. But that has been the norm lately.

So, my day is going to be good because I am going to think positively and keep pushing forward. I hope everyone has a great hump day and be blessed.

Daily Journal 4/3/2017

Today I came home but my day started off crappy because when I went to get in the car to go it wouldn’t start. I tried several times and then it would start, run for a few minute’s, then it would die. My sister-in-law’s fiancee had to drive out to pick up my husband to come fix it. When he arrived he instantly found out the problem and corrected it and then we drove home. When we pulled into the driveway, we were met by my other dogs who were ecstatic to see me. I want to say it felt good to be home, but it really wasn’t. I was happy to be reunited with my husband and dogs, but I seemed to get depressed with the thought of being here again.

I appreciate everything my father-in-law has done for us but his wife just gets under my skin too quickly. Everything was going great today until I went to make some peanut butter and jelly sandwiches since that was all we ate today when my step-mother-in-law started in on me again about how we need to help pay their bills and put food in the house. I have already explained to my husband why I refuse to put any food in their house because one, our food money has gone way down below a hundred dollars, and two, she wastes so much food. She could make a full pot of spaghetti that we eat half of at dinner and then wants to throw the rest to her dogs.

She doesn’t believe in leftovers except for her nasty pinto beans that we have to have two nights in a row. We took care of them for almost seven months with food and paid half of their electric bill for a couple of months and that doesn’t mean anything to her. We are living in a tent and running power by a drop chord so I know that we are not running that much electric but she has to complain about everything except for her side of the family who can do no wrong. They are perfect and better than everyone else.

Anyway, we are going to sit down with them tomorrow and talk and we might just have to leave and be out in the streets until we get this house inspected which now has been pushed to the first week of May due to financial reasons. We gave them the last thirty dollars we have and it isn’t good enough for her. So, whatever happens tomorrow I will keep you updated.

On a quick brighter note, I have got my whole plan of writing set up for the rest of the year. I have my goals set in place and will work towards that to keep my spirits up. Well, I wish everyone a good night and sweet dreams. Be blessed.

 

Daily Journal 03/29/2017

Hello, everyone. Today could not be much more beautiful than it is right now. It is in the lower 80’s, slight breeze, and all of God’s creatures doing their daily habits. Yesterday was a bad day in disguise. I was okay at my sister-in-law’s house and around family, but once we got home to our tent, things went south. There was a power loss while we were away which fried our wireless router to start things off. Then, having to deal with the internet provider to send someone out to check things and bring us a new router. Before all of this, on the drive home I started to feel anguish, torment, and depression all at once. By the time we had gotten home I was in full blown fallout which caused the first argument my husband and I have ever had in our three and a half year marriage.

The funny thing about it, it was blown all out of proportion by the stupidest thing, the car overheating. I am canceling my therapy sessions this week because I really don’t want to be around anyone, I guess that is why the writer’s lifestyle is a perfect match for me. I am just so done with living in this tent and being around this woman that really just makes me sick because she thinks she is so much more above everyone else.

I now know that it is time for us to get into this house before I have a complete meltdown and tell this woman what I really think of her and cause more undue stress for my father-in-law who doesn’t deserve it. Yes, he has enabled her to be like she is, but I don’t want to be the reason he has a heart attack or stroke because of her over-the-top complaining and bitching. The guys have asked me to bite my tongue but I don’t know how much more stress I can take. To just hear this woman’s voice makes my skin crawl, and I am not exaggerating. So, I will go lie down for a minute because my head is scrambled right now and it is taking a toll on my body. I wish everyone an awesome Spring day and be blessed.

Daily Journal 2/11/2017

Good morning to all of my friends and family! Wake those sleepy eyes and look at how beautiful the day is and how blessed we are. Today is grocery shopping day and I am excited. I feel pretty good today and had a productive week with my writing. I do have at least twenty books in progress that almost all of the outlines are done for but one is in final editing and one is almost ready to start writing on. I feel good about my writing because these first two books will be to help those who are struggling with issues I have already dealt with and I want them to know they are not alone and I want to give them some advice on how to overcome those obstacles and make their lives a little less stressful and full of life. I am using my experiences to allow them to see that you can overcome those struggles and to see how full life can be once you walk away. After this second book of a five book series, I will be writing my first fictional book and taking a break away from nonfiction for a minute to rest my mind and emotions. The book series is also a therapeutic way for me to deal with the backlash of my past. I never said it would be easy or that it would just disappear. I am still coping and dealing with some of my issues and it is mostly the nightmares of post-traumatic stress disorder. Sometimes I relive those situations over and over again in my nightmares, but I am still pushing forward to release them. I, myself, am a work in progress, lol. Well, I need to get dressed to go out and will be back soon to get started writing. I wish everyone a blessed and wonderful day.

Daily Journal 1/4/2017

This morning I was finally able to get up on my schedule. It has been really hard to stay on my schedule lately with trying to get my first book published and then SSI playing around with our checks on top of it. They guys have been working on the house and we are on the final lap before we can move in. I have finally gotten all my medical cards and actually have a back doctor visit on Monday to find out what is going on with my spine. Anyway, I’m on schedule today and hopefully will be getting with the graphic designer for my book but everything seems to be good today so far. The new year has started off pretty good, Clifford and I are happily married still after three years we are still on honeymoon. 🙂 I have also been working on my second book as well and it should be ready for publishing soon. I have so many books to write it isn’t funny. I already have notes for each of the next twenty books. A mixture of every genre. I hope everyone has been enjoying the new year and please feel free to read my short stories and give me some feedback on them. Well, have a blessed day everyone, it is time to start writing.

Daily Journal 12/13/2016

Today was a good day for me and my husband because we are now moving forward with the renovations to the house we are going to move into. Thursday we will be going and laying new floors in the kitchen and bathroom, insulating pipes under the house, and the new wiring is going in as well. We still have a way to go but we are hopeful that we will be moving in the first week of January. It has been somewhat fun in this two room tent but it is almost time to go back indoors to the warmth of a heater. 🙂

All of our bills have been caught up and current and I feel no stress today, but still a little sick. I have been drinking orange juice and sprite plus plenty of pepto to stop up the back end and calm down my stomach. I will be setting up doctor appointments tomorrow and our car is getting an overhaul thanks to my mechanic husband. I am sitting here at my faithful computer and I already have a two-week list of titles for short stories, I just have to sit and write them. Plenty of ideas in my head and a writing pad next to me to jot down any more ideas that pop into my mind. Thank you to everyone who responded or responds to my community questions they are very helpful. I am happy, focused, and ready to move forward with getting my first nonfiction book published this January. It is in its final editing and rewrite, and I have a cover designer who is working on a book cover for me and I do want to say thank you to everyone who has not given up on me because that makes me a better person also. I wish everyone a great night and I will write more tomorrow. Good night.

The Wicked Money Hungry Step Mother

Dalton, Georgia was a nice small town community with lots of memories for most folks, but it turned into one of the most exhausting, tormenting times for a couple named Carl and Brenda. Carl was a man of five foot nine, athletic build, shaved head and goatee. He had just gotten out of prison back in two thousand and ten for a crime he was innocent of which made him a sex offender for life. He suffered from bipolar disorder and schizophrenia for which he was receiving disability payments every month. He met his bride soon after getting out of prison at a mutual friends house one day and they became friends. It wasn’t until two thousand and thirteen when they finally decided to start dating.

Brenda lived alone with her two dogs Kayla and Kymarra in a one bedroom house she was renting from a slumlord who refused to fix anything. Carl would go over to her house to visit and their romance began. He would visit almost every day and both of them hated to see him leave. Brenda was a tall woman of six feet and her weight was proportionate to her height and build. When Carl first met her she was a phone actress for an entertainment company that serviced male callers. She was an independent woman taking care of herself and her dogs. She was a workaholic most days and did the best she could to look after her little family. Every night after Carl would leave to go home they would be on messenger together talking for hours.

One night, Brenda asked him through messenger if he would marry her, but was only joking about it, when Carl made the statement that he wanted to ask her that question the next day when he came over. So they chatted for a bit longer before Brenda was supposed to report for work. The next day when Carl came to visit he did in fact ask Brenda to marry him to which she agreed. From that moment on their relationship blossomed into a loving one which made them spontaneously decide to go to the courthouse to get married, and they did.

Once married, they went to his sister’s house who was happy for them and they became a family, which Brenda had not had in many years. They were going to his sisters for dinner or to visit almost every day. One day, Carl decided to find another house to live in because he felt his new bride deserved a better place. He found that house and quickly moved her in. She loved this new house because for one it was bigger than her old one. They tried to make it a home but stress played a part in Brenda becoming unhappy because she want to find a house to buy. Well, Carl’s other sister lived across the street from them and talked it over with his brother-in-law about the house next door to them for which he owned.

The agreement was made that they would commit to a rent to own deal so they could buy a house and make Brenda happy. It wasn’t long before the brother-in-law became a jerk to them and wanted more money and control over who came to visit. That made Carl and Brenda very disappointed. Not only did he want more money and control, but the breaker box in the house burned out and they were without power. The brother in law was notified the very same day but refused to fix the problem and only wanted his money every month. Carl and Brenda soon got bored and tired of his threats and decided to move out.

They ended up pitching a tent in Carl’s fathers’ backyard. Now Carl had a decent relationship with his father but the step mother wanted her say in everything. Carl and Brenda pretty much lost everything to live in a tent until they could find a place of their own. It was only supposed to be temporary but lasted longer than they wanted because Brenda herself became disabled and was waiting on her checks to come through which would help them move into their own house again.

Now Brenda had done everything she could to make things good between her and the step mother, but the step mother started to show her true side which was being money hungry. Carl and Brenda were living in a tent with nothing but a bed, television, and three dogs because Carl got a dog of his own, and Brenda was not working anymore. They had to live off of the little check that Carl drew each month which just barely covered their other bills. They had no extra money and then their car became inoperable which made things worse. Carl had to put off doctor’s appointments due to no transportation.

Bradford, Carl’s father, was a very supportive father and tried to do his best at helping his son and daughter in law out. He did this despite how the step mother felt about it. Brenda volunteered to clean their house for them, bought between three to five hundred dollars worth of food every month, and did whatever her and Carl could do around the house to help out. The step mother, Diana, was a very short woman who was overweight and a couch potato. All she really cared about was controlling the television and eating. Diana and Bradford had a mutual friend who was gay that they used to work with at one of the manufacturing plants here in town. She was always on the phone with him even during meal times.

Diana was a gossip who thought she knew everything and sometimes twisted the truth to suit her satisfaction. She never kept house but did most of the cooking. All she did all day when she was not cooking was complaining. Bradford did everything he could to ignore her because he has lived with her complaining for fourteen years now and was used to it. Well, even though Brenda helped out around the house by cleaning, some of the cooking, and putting food in the house, the step mother was always on to her about one thing or another.

She always complained to Brenda whenever the guys weren’t around and caused more stress on Brenda’s mind and body than she needed. Brenda was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder and depression. She didn’t have a good past and it still haunted her everyday. Brenda didn’t know how she would be from one day to the next and the step mother was slowly pushing her buttons. Brenda noticed that her step mother was unappreciative, greedy, money hungry, and soon disrespectful. It had gotten so bad that Brenda stopped cleaning her house and stayed most days in the tent just to not be around the step mother.

Now Brenda had always put plenty of food in the house and one month she only bought what was needed. It wasn’t good enough for the step mother so she complained. She verbally attacked the step daughter every time they were alone. Brenda couldn’t even walk into the house first thing in the morning without the step mother jumping on her about something. One day the step mother raised her voice and treated Brenda like she was a child and Brenda did everything she could to keep from going off on the woman, but went to the guys to tell them what happened. It made Brenda very upset that this woman could be so bad.

Carl and Brenda were doing everything they could to survive and didn’t need the step mother to cause more stress. Brenda wanted out of there more than the step mother did. Without having any money and the step mother knowing this, she constantly harped about some gas money to even go to the store two blocks away. She wanted money for everything even when Carl’s dad said we didn’t have to pay them gas money to take us anywhere. But the step mother persisted to beat down Brenda knowing that it could send her over the edge at any given time. To keep from having anymore confrontation with the step mother Brenda decided to start staying in the tent and not going into the house for anything but to shower.

When Brenda bought groceries this month and only bought what the house needed, she took half of the food down to the tent so her and Carl would have something to snack on at night. The step mother wasn’t well with things because Brenda didn’t even buy any meat this month and was complained at about that. Diana was just so annoying to Brenda and there wasn’t anything Brenda could do about it without causing more strife in the house. Brenda was at the point of pulling all the food from the house for which they were not even obligated to do but Carl and Bradford asked her to let it go.

Diana caught Brenda one morning when she went into the house to use the bathroom and complained some more to her about the food she bought and it stressed Brenda out to the point of which Brenda sat in the tent and cried. She was tired of being treated so badly. Diana stated to Brenda that because they weren’t paying any rent, nothing on the electric bill, and using their water, that it wasn’t fair or right when Brenda felt it was justified because she always put so much food in the house and even cleaned her house for her. Granted, Carl and Brenda did manage to give Bradford forty dollars one month towards the electric bill but Bradford hardly accepts any money from them because he understands how hard they are having it right now.

Carl and Brenda have discussed sitting down with Bradford and Diana and discussing what is going on, but Brenda is very cautious about that right now because she knows that what she says will make Diana angry and thus give way to a chance of them being evicted from the backyard. Bradford stated that he would not throw his son out because of a conflict with his wife, Diana.

Carl and Brenda have found a house that needs some renovations before moving in and are trying to come up with money to get it fixed. They can hardly wait to be rid of the step mother, Diana, and live on their own again. Bradford fears that once Carl and Brenda move that they will stay away and not visit. Carl and Brenda have already assured him that they will still visit him but keep a distance from Diana. Would you allow your step mother to treat you so badly and ungrateful? Any suggestions for Carl and Brenda to overcome the difficulties of living with the step mother?