Daily Journal 1/29/2018

It’s a quarter to midnight here and I am about to play some games to wind down for bed. It has been a grueling day for me with so much going on. I got up this morning, had one cup of coffee, and then had to clean house since it isn’t going to clean itself.

There are three grown adults in this house but I seem to be the only one who cares what the house looks and smells like. Everyone curses the roaches but doesn’t seem to help me get rid of them and keep them away.

I have cleaned my room and the dogs’ room every day and took a break from cleaning the kitchen to see if anyone else would clean it? It sat with almost every dish dirty in the sink and on the counter, but no one seems to care.

To me, a filthy house is chaos. It drives me crazy. I guess that is part of my OCD. Everything has to be clean and organized before I can even sit and relax. So today I started cleaning the kitchen but was not happy about it and I made it clear to everyone in the house.

I seem to be everyone’s maid, cook, and secretary. No one can seem to help or do stuff for themselves and I can’t wait to see my therapist in the morning so I can vent to him, lol. Tomorrow is my nephews’ divorce court hearing and I had to print up the divorce packet, fill it out, and then drag him down to the courthouse to file it.

I understand that he has mental issues but this is the third time I have filed this paperwork for him because his wife manipulates him. She threatens to take his kids who he has custody of unless he cancels the divorce hearing and so he does.

Everyone relies on me too much to do things for them and I have to figure out a way to break the cycle. If I take a break from cleaning, the house will get filthier and then it will just drive me crazy and I can’t function enough to write or do anything else for that matter.

It’s like I try to concentrate on writing, but the house has to be clean and smelling good for me to relax enough to get the creative juices flowing. So I get up and do everything just so I can sit and focus. Everyone gets on to me because I sit locked away in my room writing and working on things for my book like advertising, blogging, and tweeting.

I love being alone in that sense and don’t care if I ever go outside as long as there are books to write. There are not enough hours in a day for me to get everything done. Right now everyone is asleep and I enjoy the peace and quiet to be able to write.

Sometimes I get up early in the morning and get the coffee going and dogs out so that I can get some writing done before the chaos and drama wakes up around here. I will figure something out soon. I just have to have some faith. So I want to say goodnight to everyone and “Happy Birthday” to everyone who had a birthday today. I wish you many more. Take care everyone.

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Daily Journal 1/27/2018

Good morning everyone. I am up early this morning when I should be sleeping in on a Saturday. I know most of you must have had a long Friday night and are sleeping off the partying, lol. My husband and I are having coffee right now and I have taken the dogs out and then they wanted playtime which it is too early for that right now.

I am beginning my schedule this morning with this posting being the first thing on my schedule, so all of you come first every morning. I am doing pretty good this morning and I think the depression is coming under control now. It was a hard couple of weeks battling it. It looks promising this morning for me to get things done.

I have finished another chapter in my next manuscript which I have two manuscripts in progress at the same time. I hope everyone has grabbed a FREE copy of my latest ebook from this site? It has had a couple of good reviews and it is a very interesting story I think. Some of my family has enjoyed reading it. I am looking for some feedback on it, so if you have a few minutes please share it or comment on it. It took a few months to finish it, but I finally got it published and the paperback is on Amazon, but you can get a Free copy of the ebook before it goes on Amazon.

Well, it is time to get going on the rest of my schedule and I do wish everyone an awesome Saturday. “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today and many wishes for more to come. Take care.

Daily Journal 1/26/208

Good morning everyone. It is three thirty-four here in Dalton, Georgia and I woke up having to use the bathroom and now I sit at my computer thinking about doing some writing on one of my manuscripts. I don’t know how long I will last before getting tired enough to go back to sleep.

The weekend is finally here and I will have plenty of time to get some more chapters written. I am still on schedule with my goals for book publishing and I look forward to adding more books to my author page on Amazon.

The one thing I do know is that every time I publish a book I am very proud of myself and it is one more accomplishment in my book. I just have to keep moving forward with my goals and not allow anything or anyone to deter me from my path.

It is now time to go back to bed and get some more rest before starting my day. I hope that everyone enjoys their Friday and a very “Happy Birthday” to those who will celebrate a birthday today. May you have many more to come. Goodnight and take care.

Daily Journal 1/24/2018

Hello, everyone. I am sincerely apologetic for not keeping up with my posting. Even though I am on antidepressants sometimes the depression does seep through. I have had blah days and feeling depressed for about the last week to ten days. It seems the more I try to fight it the stronger it gets. I have spent a lot of the time in bed and having no motivation.

Today I feel a little better and I am trying to get things done and caught up. Sometimes it is just hard to get motivated when your entire body hurts and you feel so tired. Getting my third book published finally has been exciting and I have been working on two other manuscripts with the goal to have at least two books published a month.

Believe it or not, the writing has been good therapy for me and it gives me a break from reality while I write. I get to disappear into a world that I created and it feels like I am right there watching the story unfold. Yes, the problems will still be there but with a mental break from them, when I come back out of the story my mind has had a break and I am more apt to deal with them instead of letting them stress me out.

I hope everyone had an awesome weekend and completed the plans they had made. We have had some nice sunny days here and I have been going outside to feel the sun on my face. It is so relaxing to be outside for me.  I will try to come out of the depression and post every day just so everyone can see how I am and what progress I have made. I wish everyone an awesome evening and a “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today. Take care.

Daily Journal 1/13/2018

Good morning everyone. To those I missed twelve days ago, “Happy New Year!!” It is a very arctic cold morning here in Dalton, Georgia. The weather is reading that it is twenty- eight degrees but feels like sixteen outside. Brrr! I have been weatherizing every time I have to take the dogs out. Everyone in the house has just gotten up and we are enjoying some freshly brewed coffee together.

It has been a crazy week with my new book being finished up and published. You can find it here https://www.amazon.com/dp/1976845238 to purchase the paperback but if you go here http://brandidpayne.com/ and scroll down the page you will see a link to get the FREE ebook. It has been a long struggle to get this book published which by my writing schedule it should have been done a few months back. I am just so excited that it is finally done and up for the world to see.

I am still working on my next two books which I am hoping to have published by the end of the month. I just have stories flowing through my being and wanting to explode out to the world. I have been working on my schedule now that all my lists and goals have been edited and made easy to do. You will see my daily journal postings every day now updating you on whats going on here on my side of the world.

Well, it is time to get started and getting my second cup of coffee. Please share this post with all your friends and family so that they can get a chance to get the FREE ebook and enjoy some of my short stories which I will be posting another one today. I wish everyone an awesome Saturday and a “Happy Birthday” to everyone with a birthday today. Take care. 🙂

 

Happy New Year!!

I apologize for not writing sooner but I have been getting year-end things done and I just sent my next book to the editor which I should have back today. If everything goes well today I will be formatting it and then get a hold of the cover designer and then on to publishing.

Things have been really good so far with a few ups and downs, but we have been managing. My goal for the new year is to stop smoking and my husband has been very supportive of it. I was up to smoking two to three packs a day so we know that quitting cold turkey would not be an option because I woke up New Year’s day and didn’t have a cigarette until four o’clock in the afternoon but went through withdraws like nausea, headache, and fatigue.

My husband is working with me on it as a challenge. He has me smoking a cigarette every four hours for the next two days and then Thursday will be a cigarette every six hours and this is possible and workable for me, but he loves me enough to help and support me with it to make sure I meet my goal.

Other than that I have my goals and plans set with writing and I am currently working on two different books at the same time to break up the monotony and will is a nonfiction and the other fiction. The fiction will be shorter of the two so it will probably publish before the fiction which shouldn’t be too far behind it.

I am excited about the new year and I feel I will meet all my goals and plans I have set up. I hope everyone else had a great New Years. My husband and I sat at home, watched the ball drop on the television, got our first kiss of the new year, and then went to bed. Well, I am going to end this post here and get started on my day’s to-do list to get some things finished and caught up. I wish a “Happy Birthday” to anyone with a birthday today and a great day for everyone else. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/29/2017

“Happy Hump Day to everyone!” How are my friends and family doing today? I feel awesome today! I am alive and breathing. I woke up this morning with goals on my mind and a to-do list that I really haven’t started yet, lol. I had to run an errand to the doctor’s office and have been sitting here checking emails, updating files, and getting things ready for writing and editing.

My husband has been stuck in front of the television since he got up playing video games but that is what he does. It gives me my time to work on to-do lists and writing uninterrupted. I love him to death but sometimes his game playing gets on my nerves because he has tunnel vision and doesn’t want to do anything else.

We took our dogs to the vet around the corner for their booster and rabies shots which they weren’t too crazy about, but they lived. It hurt me to hear them scream in the next room while getting their shots. Then they came running back to me for security and comfort, lol. They are such big babies with big barks.

I am halfway through the last edit of “The Battle for Joshua” and then off to the editor. I am still writing my next book and love falling into the story as I write. It is a vampire series but not a romantic one that has been around. It is a story of love and tragedy, but in the end, it is of royalty and reign.

Anyway, I am having a great day and I hope that my evening is the same. For all of you with birthdays today, “Happy Birthday” to everyone else, be blessed with an awesome evening. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/28/2017

Good morning everyone. how are you today? I am doing pretty good this morning and had to reschedule my doctor’s appointment because my transportation got screwed up. So, that is just more time I can spend writing,

I will have finished editing “The Battle for Joshua” by the end of the week and ready to send to an editor. I am writing the fourth chapter of my next book which will also be a series. I have more time to write now since everything is back to normal here in the house and my husband and I are in the process of buying some property that we can build our house on. That is very exciting.

I hope everyone is enjoying their week so far? I will be looking for some readers for my book to give me some feedback on it before publishing it. It will be a freebie book. If interested in being a reader for me just send me an email at bpayne43@live.com.

Well, time to get to work. I will let everyone know when the book is ready for readers which should be this weekend, So, to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else have a spectacular day and love those around you.

Daily Journal 11/25/2017

Good Morning everyone. How are we doing this morning?  I woke up feeling pretty good this morning and have been doing things around the house and I have made my to-do list for the day. Everyone is having coffee together and watching one of the nieces play the PS4. It has been a pretty good morning so far and I look forward to the rest of the day.

My writing is progressing nicely and I am still on schedule towards my goals for publishing. I spent a few hours last night editing the next chapter of “The Battle for Joshua” and it will be the freebie for my mailing list. I will be writing the fourth chapter to my next book today which is part of my goal because I have a plan to write a chapter every day.

As far as my long distance goal is concerned, I have enough books to write until December of next year. It will be a couple of books per month which will build my list of published books. I want to be a career writer which is my main goal.

My husband and I are looking into buying some property in another state which will be better for us in the long run. We are tired of renting and always having the threat of being evicted and having slumlords who don’t want to fix anything but want their rent money.

We are looking to have something we own and enough space for what we need to be comfortable. We will be homesteading while we build our dream house. It will be a fresh start for us and we have been needing this for a while. We are very excited about this and are making our plans to get started.

Well, I hope everyone is having an awesome Saturday morning and to everyone with a birthday today, “Happy Birthday” and to everyone else, have a good and relaxing day and enjoy your family time this weekend. Take care.

Daily Journal 11/22/2017

Hello everyone that is not traveling a long distance today to be with family. Those of you that are traveling, you will be in my prayers for a safe travel and return. Well, today I would be prepping for Thanksgiving dinner but this will the second year in a row that I am not cooking due to no money to purchase any food for dinner.

Tomorrow, my husband, sister-in-law, and I will be spending a quiet day and evening at home with each other. Usually, I am the one cooking and I cook a very large meal, but with finances being the way they are, we cannot do it this year. We probably won’t be celebrating Christmas either because of funds being low. It is okay though, we don’t need money to celebrate holidays.

I began writing some more on my short story which is over three thousand words right now and I still have quite a bit more to write. I will be leaving shortly to go to therapy and he would like to see samples of my writing which makes me feel good. I love writing so much that I go through withdrawals when I am not able to write. My husband thinks I’m crazy but my writing is my escape like his video games are his escape.

Anyway, I will keep this short and sweet today but I will be posting again tomorrow. Everyone whose birthday is today, “Happy Birthday” and everyone else be safe while traveling and have an awesome evening. Take Care.